I carry with me the 5 month old child with bright blue eyes, brought into the ER, who's caregiver drugged her with Benadryl then propped a bottle in her mouth where she aspirated. I was the one chosen to meet the parents as they ran into the ER and place them in a room all the while not answering their questions about their child. I have never forgotten the anguished cry they both had when told she was gone.
I was the one standing beside the bed of a 88 year old woman who's husband of 63 years is looking at his wife asking me "What will I do, she is my bride "as his bride is taking her last breaths.
I was the one standing beside the bed of a 5 years old girl who's father has molested her and then tried to drown her in the tub, as her mother comes running in screaming " No" "No" "No' then collapses while having a stroke.
I was the one standing in the room, waiting on EMS to bring a Cardiac Arrest then realizing it was my uncle we would be doing CPR on to bring him back to life.
I carry with me the 14 month old baby who's mom had thrown a boiling pot of hot water on him cause he cried. Changing his dressings and hearing him cry due the pain always turned me into a red faced crying mess.
Not all of my nursing has been seeing the worst, I have had the pleasure of seeing Miracles while working in the ER, people brought back to life, moms giving birth with joy and seeing happiness as they hear that first cry of their new baby.
Even on the worst days I know being a Nurse is what I am meant to be. I am blessed beyond measure to be able to help people and be part of some of the worst and best times of their lives.