Wow, you've been through the ringer. The med error is a big deal but you did what is required of you and that is that. As far as the comment that landed you in a meeting with the NM, I'm not sure that is an offense that can get a license pulled. That coupled with the med error may have been enough to jeopardize your job. Where I live, if a nurse or other highly need employee gets fired, they are usually allowed to re apply in one year. I've seen it happen before. The thing is, RNs in today's society are in such demand, you probably can go other places and get a job. I don't mean across the country, across town. The link below is a news story about the government hiring 55,000 nurses and doctors over the next three years. Government work is another topic in its self. http://finance.yahoo.com/news/273000-new-government-jobs-cnnm-3282677853.html?x=0&.v=1 I know it was a blow to your ego and your betting your self up about it but, you are going to be just fine. Trust me.