joselyne

@JustGetIt, You are not alone in this. Give yourself permission to focus on healing and the rest will unfold. The stress you have accumulated is too great and you deserve to be free. Finding a more fulfilling job is apart of your freedom, but allow yourself to take your first step first, which is restoring your wellness so you will be able to fully participate in your next job. Freeing your Nervous System is your first step, and you have started by expressing yourself, thanks for sharing. Allow yourself to be patient, it is OK because as @spotangel said, your life and impact are not replaceable, you will change the world in a way no one else can. I had to remind myself that accepting that I am a patient was the best way to restore my health after suffering from Anxiety due to burnout. And above all, reminded me that feeling suicidal due to a job was not my fault and that I was not going to allow that to deprive myself and the world of my presence. You are strong, you just need help getting out of the negative cycle, it is not you, it is the stress, getting help will restore your baseline self. YOU WILL FIND ANOTHER JOB, YOU WILL, DON'T WORRY ABOUT THAT, focus on your irreplaceable soul. You will be helped, you will be fulfilled. Take the small steps. This is exactly what I am telling myself while on medical leave due to burning out. We are in this together, let's heal together!

Thank you for sharing. I am reading this while on medical leave due to burning out. I have had suicidal ideation due to a crazy work environment and later released there is more to life beyond work. I realized I am in my 30s and have way more life to live and depriving myself of life due to a job was ridiculous. The solution is to seek and focus on what makes a life well-lived. Focusing on happiness and embracing challenges I can handle and run away from toxic environments that break my coping threshold at all costs. Unfortunately, healthcare can be a noncaring space for nurses but we can be resilient enough to endure and move on from a terrible situation and the world will be glad we are still here to serve.

Finally someone who feels like me. I would benefit from chatting if you don't mind. I haven't in nursing for that long, your post tremendously validated my feels. My email is [email protected] if you are ok reaching out. Thanks for sharing.

Breathe Deeply. I will help you move forward based on my observation from your post, issue by issue below: Observations: 1.You have been studying for 3 weeks 2.You did questions from 1pm -10pm 3.You are discouraged, you haven't improved your score 4.You are utilizing Kaplan 5.You feel less confident 6.You don't know most medications in the questions you did 7.Can't bear the feeling of failing the test 8.Too much content, stressed out at max right now My insights for you: You have been studying for 3 weeks/ You are discouraged, you haven't improved your score Do you think that 3 weeks is enough for you to see progress? How are you evaluating yourself? Are there areas of NCLEX you are strong in? and perhaps areas you are weak in are bringing the score down? You mentioned I still don't know most of the medications being thrown at me”. Do you think that your score would increase if you strengthen your Pharmacological knowledge? What do you see as the root cause of this from your perspective? You did questions from 1pm -10pm/ You feel less confidence Ok. How much do you think you are retaining after 9 hours? How does it look like? Are you taking breaks? Are you doing questions 9 hours straight? What is going through your mind when trying to focus on for 9 hours. What's your study style and how do you study best to maximize understanding and retention? Are you better studying alone? Studying with someone? Or discussing what you studied with someone. Appropriate personal study style is key in reducing exam prep stress and self-doubt. Speaking about confidence. Is your confidence tied to the score you are getting? Do you have a concrete plan map on what you need to do in a certain amount of time to ensure complete redness for NCLEX. Different people require different duration and this goes back to identifying your strengths and weakness so you know how much it will take to improve in areas you are falling behind in. You are utilizing Kaplan Are you using other study prep programs? How did you choose Kaplan? Is it the most effective for your study style? From my experience using Kaplan for my NCLEX, it is excellent for questions, lots of great questions. However, their rationales are not as deep as other programs such as UWORLD where you get explanations with pictures and highlighted key points. I liked to get explanation right after I did a question with UWOLRD instead of Kaplan where you had to go back to the book to search for the deep rationale, which was against my timing and my focus. Have you explored all the programs and chose Kaplan Have you heard of Hurst Review? Hurst Review is excellent for reviewing content. Otherwise they have less questions compared to Kaplan and Uworld The struggle with NCLEX preps is investment. I remember I worried about how much money I would spend on prep programs, not knowing it is about finding what works best with your study style and needs. Looking up the review of NCLEX programs might offer you a complete picture. It is recommended to use at least two programs together. Can't bear the feeling of failing the test How much fear for this test on a scale of 0-10, 10 being the worse fear you have ever had and 0 being no fear at all? Based on your answer, remember what you focus on grow and take up your energy. Ideally better to use that energy to study. I know it is not that easy but if you focus on fear, it might be bringing you down…Having a concrete plan can shift your fear into focusing on your daily study milestone. Too much content, stressed out at max right now Stress is inevitable especially when there is such a huge test around the corner. However, it is important to reduce that stress to a manageable limit so you can maintain motivation and self-confidence to keep up with your progress, and eventually towards passing your test. Finally, as a Health Coach, I can't stress enough the importance of self-care in this process. Studying 9 hour straight might sound productive, but how are you restoring your energy? How are you distressing? Less is more, going out or doing someone thing unrelated to studying might look like a waste of time but it will pay off when you come back to studying, you will notice the difference. You can do this as long as you have, a concrete plan and the right support. I am happy to continue to support you on this journey if you require further help or encouragement. Feel free to reach out ([email protected]) All the best, Joselyne John, Certified Coach, BScN, RN, BA

Thanks for the insights. What test success books did you use?

Congrats!! Dance, jump, sing, shout the joy out. Whatever you do to celebrate. I look forward to being like you in a few years.

Thanks all for your insights. I am already organising my planner. Does anyone go to Langara College and knows how to get course outlines? Are course outlines listed online like other universities do? In the meantime, I emailed my proffs asking for outlines I am very curious about the clinical portion. How exactly does it unfold. I suspect it's different based on nursing programs? Feel free to offer more advice.

I am starting Nursing on Jan 3rd, 2013. My goal is to get As. I am willing to do what it takes. Are you an A nursing student? What advice and tips do you have for me?