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I graduated from a challenging AS RN program in 2014. I had trouble finding employment, eventually landing at a few sub-acute/LTAC type places doing part-time work before finally landing a benefit eligible hospital job working acute inpatient geriatric psych. I worked there for nearly two years when I resigned over administration attempting to force me to float to a med-surg unit and take a patient assignment with no orientation to med-surg or the unit itself.
Shortly after, I managed to get a job on a telemetry unit (yes, irony) at a great local hospital. It was to be a big change. 12 hour shifts instead of 8s. Days instead of evenings. Med-surg w/telemetry instead of psych. I was going to participate in their "LTC to med-surg" program. It all sounded great.
Then my gf of 6 years was diagnosed with breast cancer and started chemo. Then the education person at my new hospital went out on leave for over a month. Then COVID and quarantine and we've got my gf's 10 and 13 year old sons home all day and we have to help with schoolwork. Big changes pretty much daily at the hospital. I'm not keeping up. I'm only taking 2-3 patients and it seems like one of them gets transferred to a higher level of care every single shift. This continues. Through my not pushing hard enough for help from education/admin and hospital education/admin being overwhelmed with COVID changes and issues there, we parted ways at the end of my orientation period.
I just couldn't do it. No matter what system I used or notes I took I couldn't juggle competently enough. Would always drop a ball somewhere along the way. I wasn't fast enough so I always felt rushed. While there were distractions aplenty and enough blame to go around, the simple fact is that I've struggled with multi-tasking effectively and "time management" all along. Getting organized doesn't come naturally but I can do it. I am frequently the last out the door on a shift though. So these aren't entirely new problems, it's just that the last job brought it all together and put a big bright spotlight on it.
Within a few days I'll be leaving on a travel/contract assignment because nobody is hiring nurses around me yet for anything. It'll be night shift psych, which will be somewhat new but I'm confident I can do. What I don't know is how I get better from here in a general sense professionally. I feel as though I squandered a great opportunity with that last position and I don't want that to happen again.
How do I improve my speed/"time management" or ability to multi-task? I thought it would just start to come together with time and experience, but it doesn't seem to be working out that way for me. I'm just trying to figure out my best way forward, because I feel a bit like a failed/failing nurse at this point in a certain sense because I couldn't handle med-surg. I know at some point I'll need to start considering getting a bachelor's degree, but honestly I'm starting to wonder if that degree maybe shouldn't be in nursing. Why go deeper into an area where I haven't had success?
There are a lot of questions there, sorry for that. Any advice or direction to resources that might help in any way would be appreciated. Thanks.