First of all: Does your school have a counselor? I went thru an ADN program and we had one. Some people thought she was just for scheduling/financial issues but she was so much more. I saw her for 9 months and credit her for much of my success - and by the way I graduated with the highest GPA of our class (which included clinical grades, not just academic testing). Here is a shocker - what you said "all the other students do not have a single problem verbalizing..." is not true. I was terrified EACH clinical -who would I get, what if I did not know, what if I do something wrong? I would prepare, stay up late, freak out, cry - it is what we, as nursing students do. I think maybe because of your "low self-esteem" you may be a little ego-centric - this is NOT an attack. I know of which I speak from personal experience - you see yourself in such unfavorable light that you think everyone else does also, which is not true. Yes, there are bullies out there, (even in college) and what comes around goes around. Talk to the freshman lead (instructor) and see what is available - they WANT you to succeed. You have to want to, too. I am a good nurse, you will be too. Help yourself now so you can help others later. We need you!