I was on the fast track to midwifery until recently.... I found an online program that a well-respected coworker is attending and began the one prereq I needed to apply. I got my husband and children on board, and was working out all the logistics.
All of the sudden, I took a step back and realized the hours of a midwife would do more harm than good to my family. My dream is to be a midwife, but the dream I am living now is to be a wife & mom. It broke my heart to realize that my dream has to be put away, for at least a while. Right now, I'm working part-time hours as an RN, spending lots of time with my little girls and my husband. In ten years from now, I may decide to become a midwife - or maybe not.
As a good friend once told me to remind myself frequently: I do enough, I have enough, I am enough!