Hi, all. I am new to the site and joined d/t noting the BPD messages. I, too, am bipolar. I have been an RN for 19yrs. and a darn good one, too. I was diagnosed correctly in Fall of 2003. Before that I was only treated for depression because I only went to the MD when I felt like crap. After reading about BPD, I went to a psychiatrist and he agreed I was indeed bipolar. I was placed on new meds and functioned well for the next 4 yrs. with a few med adjustments in between. But, this year everything escalated. I crashed & burned in Feb. and only recovered well enough to return to work in April. I was placed on Lithium in addition to the Lamictal I was on previous. However, within 2 months, I am back on the roller coaster from hell. I have poor concentration & alternately feel like jumping out of my skin or hiding under the covers for life. Geodon was added but I'm unable to tolerate it. The odd thing is I work as a Psychiatric RN! While this does give me intimate knowledge into their feelings, it also makes it painfully aware to me that I may have to leave the nursing profession for the sake of my patients and myself. I am deathly afraid I will come unglued at work and traumatize the patients, not to mention some of the staff. While they (the staff) are aware of my BPD, since this last episode, some of them have taken to "hovering" over everything I do and say. Did I mention my paranoia? (Ha, ha). I guess my question is...how will I know for sure that it's time to hang up the ol' stethoscope? When I'm controlled, I'm great, but I wonder if I will ever again feel controlled. And I don't want to make such a decision if I'm not in the right frame of mind. My MD thinks I can recover again, but I have mountains of bills to pay and am a single Mom besides. Income is rather important for those things. Anyone out there able to give this chick some advice?? All will be appreciated.
Hello I'm new to the site and newly diagnosed with BP 1. It has been a few years since you have had this issue, has anything gotten better? I'm supposed to attend nursing school in Jan 2012 but petrified of the level of difficulty of the program that everyone constantly reminds me of not to mention all the episodes I may have during school. Is there any advice you can give me? Were you given any advice that was helpful for your situation?