kellynn74

That’s what I figured and am hoping. I am in a legal state for it too and not many ppl around here have even heard of it. I have yet to take my initial chemical dependency eval so I just don’t know what to expect. They said no “mood altering substances”. I pray they give me a list of no-no’s

It doesn’t show up on your tests through your board ordered drug screens?? Can I ask what state you’re in?

Thanks SO much. I definetly will add her on fb. I do have an attorney. She said she feels positive that if I do what they’re asking of me, anything will be dismissed. I just can’t fathom going through this and altering my whole life —the time (I have 3 YOUNG kids), the money (what if I lose my job) and I don’t even have an issue. I haven’t touched anything I should in 16 months. Ugh. Just airing out my frustrations. But I worry what’s done is done, there’s no turning back now. I clearly have to do what they expect of me and that’s it. Right? This is miserable. It’s consuming every ounce of me. How are you? What’s your situation. You’ve been in for 2 months now you said..?—in which state??

Oh god. I took an old prescription I had in the house for shoulder injury, ran out and had my dad give me some more. But since that’s a huge no no and the board got wind of anything, my only way out of this is to do a SPAN and the PAP. They’re referring me to this recovery center for an evaluation so I’m not sure who does it. I have no idea what to expect. I know my biggest concern is keeping my liscence. But I’m a bit bitter that I have to alter my everyday life for a mistake most people in like do... d now I have to watch what I eat? I got told to use minimal hairspray? Not 1 glass of wine for a celebration for 2 years? This is nuts. I wonder if it’s all even worth it..... I go to my first “meeting” in a week and have this evaluation in a few weeks when my insurance kicks in. So I am as new as new can get. But— I’m terrified to lose the job I have now if they put stipulations on my liscence. The unknown just freaks me out. I am trying to be positive and think maybe they’ll take a lot of scenario into consideration but after reading all of the other stories. I worry that’s naive of me to think.

Hey all. Can any of you who have had a “chemical dependency evaluation” walk me through what to expect? And secondly— is it not allowed or extremely difficult to further your education(example: wanting to get my NP) while going through this whole horrible process? I recall seeing some posts about ppl not being able to get BSNs and stuff... thanks.

Sorry about the confusion. There is a lot more to everything but I tried to sum it up the best I could. No of course the pills were not in my mouth, a pt was nauseas and dry heaving and spit out pills .. those were the ones I was talking about I tried to waste. When I was called down to HR regarding this instance I was blindsided. I went into work (worked the day prior with NO idea of anything going on) and my nurse manager took me away to HR in front of all of my coworkers and ppl have been asking me so many questions. I've worked there for 10 years and am big on pride and respect and felt like I lost that there. Once I was told the only way I can remain an employee there would be to voluntarily surrender my liscence and enroll in a professional assistance program, I resigned as I was miserable at my job lately as is (I would be in charge with 7 pts myself) and decided to try to move forward. I admitted to what may show up on the test from what I had the few days before ...so I don't know if they never called me with results bc it was what was known to come up? Or was it actually negative.. I have NO idea. Once again I am not justifying my actions as far as trying medication from family. But in NY the rules are VERY strict as far as trying to obtain prescriptions. They'll just defer you from doctor to doctor bc no one wants to be involved in prescribing opiates unless it's ABSOLUTELY clear you need them like a broken bone or herniated discs. That is all. Needless to say there's no turning back for me now. Just was wondering if anyone has had to deal with the boards for a similar situation. I don't know what to expect. How long it may take, does it always turn into a hearing? I'm just scared

Hi. Did anything ever come of this regarding them telling the DEA?

I actually intended on going into the programs they offered more for the fact that it would wipe any possible discipline on my liscence but when I called these agencies and told them my story they said I wasn't really a candidate for the programs as I was not a legit addict. I only took a few things for a few weeks and stopped immediately with no negative effects. I am not justifying my actions at all but once I realized I wasn't a candidate and was humiliated at my job, I decided to resign and work else where. I'm hoping that my MD can drug test me here and there, prove my post partum depression and therapy sessions to show it was just a mistake at a moment and lesson learned and I'm doing all the steps to Help myself mentally and move forward. I just don't know if they will even care to hear that. I hate the unknown and not knowing what to expect. It's killing me

Hi all. Hoping some can guide me in what to expect if they have been in similar situations. I am an RN in NY and about a month and a half ago I got drug tested at work for "reasonable suspicion" ..they were questioning me because I had a high number of wastes, administer meds more than colleagues, 2 pills were not wasted properly a while back and they said I administered earlier than I should. I explained myself that I always thought we can give meds up to a half hour early (apparently they changed the policy while I was on maternity leave), I am being worked up for MS and drop things frequently which is why I have a higher number of wastes and need to pull out more. I always waste the proper way with a witness with the exception of these 2 pills they mentioned. I was in charge that day, went to waste spit out pills and there was a code so I disposed them properly and told myself I'd get a witness in a few min and forgot. The ********* part is my drug test will come back positive I assume (NO ONE told me the results) bc I was getting a few things from my father for a few weeks for intractable headaches and muscle pains. I am so angry at myself bc i NEVER diverted and don't usually like to take any meds but the stress of work, MS, my sick dad, having a miscarriage, post partum depression and all of the above lead me to asking him for more medicine the 2 months prior. But the perfect storm of a possibl positive drug test with what they're accusing me of is leaving me petrified. I met with an attorney who speculates the board of discipline will eventually be contacting me. I am in fear everyday that I'm going to come home to a letter and this nightmare is going to continu. It's almost been 2 months and I haven't heard a thing. Has anyone been in a similar spot? How long did it take for the boards to reach out? What was your outcome. I am so worried they won't believe me bc it's my word against a dirty drug test. I haven't taken anything in months, got a new job in a school, went on antidepressants and am seeing a therapist. I pray they see I am doing the right thing and are easy on me ......