So I started at the methadone clinic today. And I can say that the pain is already so improved with ONE dose. I have ZERO desire to use tonight. I'm excited for what this means for my future. Thank you all for the support and love. It's not easy being an addicted nurse in secrecy. Although the MD today told me I am not am addict. I'm dependent because of the pain.
Also, yes, I have been able to do my job while on these meds. I never used to get high or knock myself to Oblivion. It really was all about the chronic pain. Just so happens with opioids, you build a tolerance so fast so you have to take more and more. But I'm done!