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  1. heartbrokenRN

    Got fired... again. Should I not be a nurse?

    Sarah K, RN: I am interested to hear how you are doing these days. :) Your situation sounds just like mine. Except the LTC position is the one where I started out and still kept. I want to hear that you will now be posting in the "Success Stories" forum after you have gotten through all of this. For good or bad, I'd like to know what you have decided. I don't want to repost everything that I have written previously, but you can find me under my post "New grad fired 2x- now what?" Times are tough in this economy and I am still looking for another job. Some days I just don't have it in me to look.
  2. Wow!!! I am truly inspired by the strength in all of you! I have been going through my own dark moments and I thought I'd see what success stories there were out there to look at the cheery side of things! I'm glad that you haven't given up! Just remember that the NCLEX is just a test- the rest of nursing uses all the other skills that you have. You will be great! And I would love to hear how everyone is doing after they have passed. What are your plans? Where are you working? How do you answer awkward questions from recruiters?
  3. heartbrokenRN

    I have given Nursing my best is it not for me?

    Oh, girl... I hear ya... Read some of my other posts... I went through orientation, was told that I was doing really well, and then I went out working on my own. After I was out on my own, that's when it started coming out that I was having trouble "connecting the dots." I appreciated the constructive criticism and I asked if we could get down to specific examples to improve my learning curve. I was surprised that anyone thought that I wasn't "connecting the dots" since I graduated at the top of my class, had work experience in another area. I've asked for feedback repeatedly, but never got anything specific. I was literally terminated at the 11th hour of my probationary period. What gives? My nose never turned brown from any of my jobs. Is that my problem? It's just not my style. I don't brown nose, I mind my own business, I don't gossip, and I prefer to eat lunch by myself because I want to be alone to decompress. I do my work, don't wear an iPod, help others out, hell I'm nerdy enough that I read the policy and procedures manual online during night shift. Like you, chocolateskye, I am a minority. I don't think that should have anything to do with my competency. However, as a new grad, I'm not going to be as competent as an RN with 20+ years of experience, so in the end, that was the "excuse" I was given. I don't believe that I was any worse than any other new grad. Don't let yourself get bogged down by how others perceive you. Chin up, keep looking, know that you have it in your head and in your heart to be a good nurse. I learned that I just need to learn to schmooze better in the future. (I'm not sure how I'm going to manage this one. The thought of having the smell of that s**t on my nose makes me want to vomit.) It's not not you, you just need to find a place that's a better fit for you. Times are tough out there so it's hard for us to be picky. I just pray that we all land somewhere safe.
  4. heartbrokenRN

    Coworker quit/fired! Should we know what happened or not?

    Here's what's at stake- if co-workers know for a fact that someone has been terminated/fired/whatever-euphemism-we-want-to-use, that person's future employment prospects are at risk. Rumors will fly whenever information cannot be confirmed, which might just be as harmful to the person's reputation, but the mystique of it will at least help save face. I would worry about landing a new job and someone with a set of loose lips will go blabbing about the past. Though the team on the new unit may have formed a positive image of the newbie, knowledge of the past is sure to taint her/his reputation. How do you know who's really your friend? I agree with midwife2b- reach out to a friend who may be in her/his darkest moment. She/he will tell you what she/he wants you to know. It goes without saying that if you are lucky enough to be held in confidence that you will not go around spreading rumors or discussing a private matter with others. And for those of you older nurses, I am sorry to hear of what you have been through... As a new grad, I always felt like I had been thrown out to sea without a paddle. I would ask many questions, but I would get so many different answers that I didn't know whom I could trust. The charge/resource nurses were frequently nurses with less than 5 years of experience; there couldn't have been more than 4 or 5 nurses in total on our unit with more than 5 years of experience, to tell you the truth. I really appreciated the nurses that were willing to teach and help out. I avoided the younger nurses because I didn't want to be a part of the "sorority" and I didn't want to participate in the gossip. Let's face it, experience in life will teach you how to interact as a team. I was careful to navigate my relationships on the unit and sometimes the politics in nursing are more exhausting than the job itself. And we all know what a tough job nursing is already! It's frightening to know that there are seasoned nurses who are being let go! We need you!
  5. heartbrokenRN

    New grad fired 2x- now what?!

    Thank you all for your kinds words! I'm still trying to work through my situation and wondering about the kind of struggles I face as a new RN. As each day passes, I worry that my skills will atrophy. There is a dearth of jobs and I am getting anxious about finding another position. If I were to get an interview, they will want to know why I am no longer at my last position. What do I say? It looks strange to anyone to quit a job before landing another one. How do I answer this question? At this point, I haven't even mentioned this situation to many people because I am just too depressed and embarrassed.
  6. heartbrokenRN

    Do Not Hire

    I am so sorry this has happened to you! How is it possible that hospitals have a "Do not hire" list?! This definitely sounds like something that needs some legal action.
  7. heartbrokenRN

    New RN who may lose her Med Surg job

    Hi Epona! I'm glad you were able to find this site so that you can vent and get some feedback from others. I've been in your shoes and I can't say that I was successful in getting around the situation. If you look at some of my other posts, you will get to know my own situation. I also was a top student, had prior work experience, however, I did not have the benefit of having specific areas of needed improvement pointed out to me. I was simply let go the day before my probationary period was up. I would definitely go look things up in your med-surg book. Book knowledge cannot replace hands-on skills, but it will help pull the pieces together. Make it known that you are putting in the effort, ask for advice from other experienced nurses (not the ones who will go and advertise your "ignorance"). It's hard knowing that jobs do not come a dime a dozen these days so hang onto what you have... Try to change the impression that people have already formulated about you- you are a new grad and will not know everything, but you are trying. Just know that you are not alone! Please keep us updated on your situation!
  8. heartbrokenRN

    New grad fired 2x- now what?!

    Sigh... I don't even know where to begin... I've been lucky enough to be able to get another job after I was fired the first time. Am I going to be able to find a second job after the second time?! When I graduated from school, I couldn't find a job in a hospital so I swallowed my pride and took a position in a LTC facility. Though I absolutely hated it, I knew that it was still experience and I could continue looking for another job while I was there at the LTC facility. After 3 months, I started looking around because I really just couldn't take enough of the stress: 25+ patients, passing meds, dealing with behavioral issues, not to mention the different culture of a LTC facility, and all the charting. I was confident in my knowledge of meds, procedures, treatments, etc. I hated working 5 8-hr shifts, but I have to say that I really benefited from the daily repetition and the daily OT for charting really allowed me to save $. I was fortunate enough to land a job with my first call-back and first interview in a step-down unit. Orientation went really well for me due to my previous experience, which I hadn't even bothered to list on my application since I wasn't at the LTC facility long enough. I had a great relationship with my preceptor and I had positive feedback from her all throughout. I had some difficulty with my time management skills and there were a few bad days here and there, but I survived. I had a personality conflict with my back-up preceptor, which I *thought* wasn't a big deal since I didn't work with her often. Two nights before my probationary period was over, I had to work with my back-up preceptor. Grrr... The night went well until just before shift chage. My preceptor noticed that my post-op patient had an air leak- she was furious, but she told me that she would take care of it. I didn't cry, or have much of a reaction, but I offered my help, asked what I could do, etc. She huffed away in disgust and as soon as day shift arrived, she rushed off to tell our supervisors of the event. I humbly agreed that she should ask our supervisors to extend my orientation. I was embarrassed and horrified that I should have caught the air leak myself. My back-up preceptor was still in the office, even after I gave report on our patients. I waited around a little bit to try to say goodbye, but she never came out so I went home. The next time I arrive for my shift, I look for my name on the assignment board and I didn't see it. Oh no... I asked the charge nurse about my assignment. It was supposed to have been my last day on orientation. The charge nurse arbitrarily assigned me to one of the more senior nurses, knowing that I was about to be off orientation the next day. My morning went well until one of my patients fell because he was trying to wiggle to the edge of his seat d/t his swollen scrotum. I called for help, but no one came... (Way to go team! ) The only person that came to help me was one of our supervisors. Oh no again... I got hauled away to her office to discuss the air leak event, nothing was mentioned about the fall. I ended up getting canned the day before my probationary period was over. I was mortified and heartbroken. My badge was taken away and I had to beg security to let me out of the parking lot. I was distraught and angry at what had happened in the last few days. I wondered if these events had happened after the probationary period was over, would things have been different. In any case, I didn't have too much time to get depressed. I didn't look for a job until well over a week later. Lucky enough, I scored another position with my first interview! My second position didn't begin until the following month. One month wasn't a horrible amount of time to wait and I was able to make some extra cash with the flu clinics in the meantime. I was grateful that luck had come my way. This time I was skeptical about my new position because of the higher acuity level and general awkwardness with a different patient population. After a few weeks time, I got over it. I really didn't have a choice. I made one huge med error where I was about to put the wrong medication in the wrong port. Oh crap! It was the middle of the night. I was tired. And I guess I was confused because the medications came in similar syringes. I had other med errors along the way: I gave an extra dose of IV lasix after it was changed to PO lasix because I missed the change; I was about to give 0.4 mg of a medication versus 0.04 mg, but it was caught because I had my preceptor check before I gave it. These med errors are inexcusable. I understand. The remainder of my orientation went well and I was sure to ask for help whenever I wasn't sure about something. Unfortunately, the med errors stuck out in my preceptor's mind and tarnished my reputation. My orientation was extended, and I was even able to make it through to the end of my probabationary period without too many complaints. I had some rough days too, but I survived. Again, two days before my probationary period, I showed up on my supervisor's radar. This time, an resident had complained about me: there was a whole slew of his orders that I had to work through and he had gotten annoyed that I was being slow. I heard about his complaint through a third party the following day; the resident, himself, never complained to my face, or ever acknowledged my existence for that matter. This complaint got through to my supervisor and I was canned again! Knowing that I had some difficult adjustments to my new unit, it wasn't entirely a surprise... But I was just horrified that I had been fired twice, again right before my probationary period ended. At this point, I don't even know what to do with myself and I've lost confidence in myself as an RN. How do I go about looking for a job now?! Especially during this tough economic time, I'm falling into an awkward category. Am I still a new grad since I haven't had enough acute care experience or am I considered experienced, and therefore, ineligible for a preceptorship. I still feel like I need some hand holding at this point. Anyone else in a similar boat?