I’m a new grad I started in a subacute rehab facility fresh out of graduation. I always wanted to work in ICU or step-down, maybe moon light in acute psych. However, this was just not to be. I graduated and could only secure this job because of previously working there before. I’ve tried to tell myself I enjoy this job, but as time lags on I feel so dissatisfied with it. Most of the time I’m there I feel like a glorified CNA. I rarely if ever do a head to toe assessment. I feel like all I ever do is go in put people to bed, change some wound dressings, put someone in the shower, put pts on the commode, pass a pain medication…every now and then something critical happens like a high BP or a low BG, but that’s about as deep as it goes.
I want to really get out there and learn. I want to do assessments, and really track pt’s conditions when they are a little more acutely ill. However, my time in subacute makes me doubt my skills now. I want to get into a hospital program and learn about EKG’s, RRT, titrating drugs for BP, fluid balance, shock, codes, managing lines, ect. These skills happen rarely where I work. I want to put on my critical thinking cap, not just my physical skills gloves.
I’ve started applying to different positions in hospitals but I feel like I’m still getting hit with a brick wall. I really can’t see myself sticking around this job for more than a year without losing my sanity. I know the answer is to just keep applying. I’m thankful to have work in these rough economic times…but I tell you I’d change up jobs in a heartbeat rather than stay here.
I think I’m in the wrong specialty. Anyone else hit this wall during their nursing career? Thanks for reading this vent. Not all days are bad, some days i leave feeling like i've made a difference, but i just want something different. Something more challenging....