Don't give up! You can and will eventually pass the NCLEX, and when you do and find a job you will appreciate being there as a professional nurse that much more. You have a lot of heart and determination to continue to persist. Keep on going, it will make all those previous efforts a waste if you stop now. The only thing now between you and being a nurse is a test, not the years of torture in nursing school. Keep on trying and keep your head up. You are striving for that goal and you will be rewarded greatly once you get there.