gee N1colina, thanks for the support and encouragement. I wrote my post right after I had just gotten home from the best day of clincals I had had in nursing school and was happy. Of course there will be parents, there will be worried/sad/angry/upset family members in every area of nursing. And of course there will be sad times and they dont always get better. There is death and sad aspects to every area of nursing as well. I may still be a student with no actual NICU experience but that doesnt mean I am that naive. I also did not just care for health babies about to go home, one of them had a mother who drank most of her pregnancy and she had major heart problems and was about to go for her second heart surgery. While I did find this sad, I was more mad at the mom and all I wanted to do was help the baby. I also had pts in pediatrics yesterday who were sad, one with ESRD on dialysis 16 hours a day and the other was just diagnosed with lung cancer yesterday. While I was sad for them, I was not about to run crying. I know the world is not fair and innocent children will have to face horrible things, but thats why I wanted to be a nurse so that I could make a difference. I couldnt cure the babies ESRD yesterday, but I could play with and make him laugh. Plus, I am the type of person who thinks we place too much value on life, and that there are worse things than death. I would rather see a baby die than know they will suffer longer or have a poor quality of life. No, I dont think it'll be easy, there will definitely be days that I cry but doesnt every nurse?