-I graduated in Jan '10.
-Passed the boards March '10.
-Worked as a nurse's aid at a local hospital from july '09- july '10.
-(First opportunity) Got hired to work in acute care at NYP- Cornell, started july '10.
Got the preceptor from HELL (got berated every day, he bullied everyone from me, to volunteers, chaplains, nurses from an adjacent unit, anything he thought was inferior... did a lot of complaining about me to management for making mistakes-- before I ever had the opportunity to make them). No patients were ever harmed. I barely had the opportunity to do anything on my own. So I didn't make it through preceptorship, and lost the position 3 months later.
- Spent a lot of time questioning my own intelligence and lost confidence in myself. I pulled myself back up by becoming more active with nursing (I volunteered in medical oncology at a close hospital, went to open house events with free CE's, took free CE's online, joined oncology nurse society, attended ONS seminars/events, set up my own database of all the hundreds of positions I applied for between December '10- June '11.
-After going on an interview in April '11, I got the call that I got the job on June 1st. It was in a med surg unit in LI. This was considered a GI medicine floor, but we had a large quantity of psych, dementia, ETOH withdrawal and palliative patients. It's very challenging.
...Anyway long story short, I lost THAT job too. Basically, I had my wedding date for Oct. 1, 2011 set since December of '10. On the interview (in april) the hiring manager knew I was engaged and getting married soon. She didn't ask for a date. After I started working in June (early june) I told her of the date (but had NO plans of taking PTO days). She nearly chewed my head off. I tried my best of being as helpful and diplomatic as possible. Since then, she had been passive aggressive about the wedding (I swear I didn't take any time off! Just switched two days so I could sleep the night before the wedding and attend my own rehearsal dinner). She tried to make me work the night before the big day.
2 weeks after the wedding, she forced me to resign from the position on the grounds of my "many mistakes." She said that if I didn't resign, that she'd fire me adn that getting fired could hinder my license in NYS, keeping me from ever working as a RN again.
Yes I made errors since I started. They were based on charting or supposedly missing a specific lab in the morning. The charting error that got me bounced was putting a flexeril PRN q 8 hrs into a standing order section of the paper medex. The patient still got the right med/dose/route/times. I know what I did was a mistake. I was wrong. Apparently education (as I was told by my lovely manager) didn't think I was worth keeping. None of my patients were ever harmed.
TODAY -- I'm frustrated that I cannot find work. I think that I'm unemployable at this point. Whose going to want to hire me in this economy? I find my own recent work history unbelieveable, let alone others to understand how I struck out twice in a row the way I did yet feel like a victim. I didn't write this story to get berated for being irresponsible. I think it's safe to say we all made at least one mistake in our careers. Is there any (helpful) advice out there for someone like me? If you read my story... thank-you.