Hi Nani, I just wanted to respond to your post.....
it is not easy.....and I hope other RN's and students weigh in..but I wouldn't say you "have to have tough skin" to be a nurse...Nurses deal with a lot in evey way..but..you are human..we are human..don't beat yourself up..and don't let that discourage you...you seem that you really want to do this...and you are coming along so far...Why do you think you can't finish your Med/Surg...are you having a problem academically or it is the emotional aspect of the clinicals? What are you having anxiety about? What is really bothering you?
Let me tell you something...If I could tell you my story of anxiety and depression, you would not believe how I even made it through my CNA program. :spin: You can do ANYTHING you set your mind to.. What is in your heart? What do you really want to do? If you want to be a L/D RN, then you know what you have to do to get there. That is exactly what I want to do.
I've backed out of school so many times before, b/c I was afraid, and scared, and wasted time, but now I am in it head strong, making 4.0's, President's list, and yeah, I deal with the anxiety and depression that comes along with clinicals and just life in general, but somehow I did it and i am doing it. I am still scared as anything...but I prove myself wrong..and I am stronger than I thought I was..and so are you...I know that feeling of thinking you let people down, or the other ones who were "jealous" of you (b/c I have people like that in my family), are liking your it. In the end yeah, it's nice for people to be proud of you, but you have to be proud of yourself..do it for yourself...and because YOU want to, not b/c you feel you have to..and if you don't want to..then that's okay to...you didn't lose...but I think you do want to do this.
Are you able to talk to someone about how you feel? We all know that Anxiety and Depression is not healthy for you, both physically and emotionally, and when you are in a challenging program such as nursing, you want to have these issues tamed, that does not mean you won't be dealing with any of it..I don't anyone who doesn't have some sort of anxiety or depression. In fact many healthcare workers, including Rn's suffer from these disorders. But if you think you need some help, never be afraid to ask and get some help okay...that doesn't mean you are a bad person or less smarter or a bad nurse..you are human..we all have issues..I joke I have a whole subscription!! But I hope you can find some resolve, and in the end, I hope you do what makes you happy and healthy.:)
Please feel free to contact me if you ever need to vent