Hi msjam54...it sounds like you are really catching it. I have the same problems during the fall and winter. I've noticed that the older I get the more depressed I become around fall and winter. I hate the cold more and more every year. I start school Aug. 24 for RN. I'm 38 years old...some may think that is still young and it is but I've never been in my fifties, etc. yet to realize that it all will work itself out. I'm 38 depressed, suffer a little SAD, GAD, and have bipolar. The meds that I am currently taking have helped me out alot...but the weather is still a problem. My boyfriend and I plan to (Lord willing) move to the warmer states, like Florida, California, Arizona, etc. (SOMEWHERE WARM) As far as the light therapy goes...my mind knows that it isn't the sun so therefore, it does not work for me. Whenever I see the sun out, I feel a little better despite it being in the fall and winter months. Not to say that it won't work for you though. Can you move to a warmer part of the country? Like the states I mentioned above.
I continue to pray and try to have faith...It is hard I admit, but I still do it because I do partially believe anyway, that it will work itself out.