So I have to rant a little. I am in my 5th week of NS, and I am actually doing well. I have taken 3 tests, and got high 90% on all. The trouble I am having is all the people in my life (besides my hubby,thank god) who don't get it that NS is my priority. For instance my in-laws, who are great except, they keep planning stuff including me when I really cant participate. Not to mention my Aunt coming into town and wanting to stay at my house,and my close friend giving me a guilt trip about going to their housewarming party. Then there are the birthday parties that my kids friends want me to take them to. I even opted out of a week long camping trip with my family (in-laws), but I am still expected to plan/shop for the food, and pack...
I think NS school would be cake if everyone else would stop and think "Oh yah, she is trying to study and actually change her life -- lets not expect her to take on extra stuff".
I know that I sound like an ingrate, I know that the old me (pre -NS me) would have no problem with any of this. Now though I feel resentful toward those I love for wanting me to do anything more than what I have to. I also feel really guilty for resenting them, cause I know that they just want to include me.
I dont know how to get through the next 13 months without blowing up at someone. I dont want to sound like a selfish bit**. It is true that I feel like this is my time, and f them all if they dont get that I am puting me first for once...but I cant say that. What to do, what to do?
