OH DARLINGS.......ITS OK......TAKE A DEEP BREATH IN AND OUT....THEN GO HAVE A MARGARITA or CHAI LATTE!
I totally understand....But you are going to be fine...I know there are alot of horror stories out there from all kinds of people who are struggling and stressed, but your journey is an individual one (of course your husbands/wives, and children are included in that).
I am finishing up PREQ right now, and every other day I want to cancel my classes and eat my way through the kitchen. The thing I am worried about is not the BODY FLUIDS or the horrors...its that so many, many nurses are very, very stressed out! their stories scare me...I know I can be a nurse and I know I can make good grades in college, but I get worried that I won't enjoy the overwhelming stress associated with work life. Now that being said, my goal is not to work in a hospital, I want to go the community health way, like nurse-midwife or FNP...I am scheduled to do 2 years of Peace Corp after I get the BSN as a present to myself (and to help with empty nest) when my son and daughter go off to college.
I am 42 years old, I nursed a severely ill Mother for 3 years, I have almost lost my daughter twice from pacemaker failures, I held down a household while my husband went to advise soldiers in IRAQ for months, and I put all my dreams and aspirations on hold to take care of my family for the last 20 years (which I loved). So compared to all that lets keep in mind that Nothing horrible is going to happen to you if you struggle in school. and Nothing horrible will happen to you if you get out and you don't like nursing...your life is a long, long journey some of which you concentrate on today, this week and this month, and some of which you dream about for your future.
I am taking my prerqs right now for an accelerated BSN/MSN program. I have a BS degree from eons ago, in Public Policy. I have MATH anxiety, and MULTIPLE-CHOICE TEST anxiety (major anxiety). BUT.....I loved, truly loved college the first go around it is so fun to learn stuff. I always avoided math and science so I am nervous about STATS and CHEM. I know the nursing program is notoriously hard and stressful, and I don't have money to burn either. But I do know that once you have the RN behind your name you can do about a gajillion different things with it. It could lead to things you can't possibly imagine.
The best bit of advice that I have gotten so far is to do several things.
1) MAKE your LONG-TERM, MID-TERM, and SHORT TERM PLANS (map everything out, all the possibilities, the requirements and options you have or want). MAke a big map, one to hang on your wall with magazine cut-outs and stuff and colors and anything that contributes to your good feelings about where you want your life to go...and put it somewhere that you see it everyday, mine is hanging right by the toilet, I add to it, and take away, but I love it it because I have pictures of my family and of things I want to do, and things I want to buy etc....ITS an INSPIRATION BOARD!
2) IMPLEMENT your SHORT TERM PLAN----that means just deal with the spring semester for now, get a tutor for your classes on the first day, they help so much, or join a study group, AND find a mentor at your school (they are so great to have in your pocket, someone older). 3) MAKE A LIST OF 7 REASONS WHY YOU ARE DOING THIS---this helps when i am overwhelmed, to read why I am doing this...stick it your mirrors, frig, dashboard in your day planner, on your notebooks etc.)
4) DREAM BIG-KEEP YOUR OPTIONS OPEN----you may get through NS and then end up teaching or like me have to stay home and take care of someone for a while.....who knows...there are people on this forum who have had 3 or 4 MAJOR careers and are starting NS in their 50's and 60's....Who wouldve figured? WOOOOO WHOOO!
I think its wonderful to come to a site like this and get advice from people who are on similar journeys..Ive learned so much about the details of NS and nursing life. Because my friends poor things, don't have a clue what I am talking about most of the time...so it helps to talk here.
ITS ALL GOOD, and it scares the S**T out of us most of the time, but there really isn't any other choice, life is a roller coaster, its just our job to have the safety bar latched....the rest of the time we can scream our lungs out!