kitty29

Your words resonate to me! After spending 40 years greatly devoted to my career in Nursing many chapters in your story are my own! No support from management, back-stabbing, bullied....it all happened causing me to retire 4 years earlier than planned. After a year the hurt is still there, although the nightmares have diminished. Medicine became a business Not a art. As a business at the height of your nursing career instead of respect you find you cost too much. I gave my youth, my life to nursing. My advice to the young nurses, some who think they are above it all, save for an early retirement!

You have an at risk child....your priorities are correct!

I just turned 62 and did get a notification from a travel company I used to work with. I do not plan to take this or any offer. Not only am I at risk, I am unable to keep up with the physical demands of the job anymore. It was getting very difficult 2 years before I retired! Spinal stenosis throughout my back, and now injury to the IT Band in my left leg!! Been at least sewing homemade masks for my community and former coworkers....but that's all I can do.

Boy I think we all have worked with people like that. The social butterfly!! Love to hear themselves talk! Usually members of the clique...beware! Back-stabbers!

For myself when I worked I tended to be very organized....I worked NICU. How "busy* my shift was depended on the acuity of the assignment. I also worked nights. If all caught up and no family around I often did computer lesrning....so many free CEU"s online! But that was after offering help to my colleagues.

Yah....it takes alot of physical effort to do what I want here...gardens, lawn...ect.. And although better, I still carry hurt from the back-stabbers in my former job. That tells me a Big No! Continued Good Luck To You As Well! Stay Well!

I listened to an expert saying they felt it would not mutate again because it reached the high ability to spread. I am not as pessimistic...I feel this will end sooner than later. But people do need to follow the recommendations.

I am retired. Although I am not in the workforce I feel for my colleagues. I am making masks for my community hospital and nursing home. Because I am considered at risk I would not re-enter the workforce. If I did I would not care for close iij vents with CO-19 without PPE and training. Please Be Careful.

I am retired, following this closely as well personal concerns being considered at risk. My understanding f is the vast majority have had or will have this in such a mild form they never know! In my area people now believe they had CO-19 but it was unknown. I believe Ameri is a is heading toward "herd immunity".

I hear that! Before I left I did have a great deal of pain, often limping on my way to the car by the 3rd shift. And letting the RN liscence go is going to be very difficult. We worked so hard to achieve it!

Hi! So I did renew my RN although I do not at this point plan to work again....yet??? Interested on hearing if any of you did something within the field after retirement? Red Cross? Doctors Without Boarders? Camp Nurse? I had once thought about part time but honestly carry too much baggage from what was done to me at my careers end. Thanks! Stay Well!

Almost a year of retirement! First of all I remember and thank you who posted for all of the support offered me back then. It was such a tough time. I still shed a tear from time to time. Christmas was hard because I used to read to the baby's. But over-all I am doing well. Or as everyone in the world I was until CO-19! Physically well....just everything we all are coping with...Right! I have had mild cold symptoms so sticking at home. Want to get fabric to make masks for some of you! I am concerned at risk, so not picking up the torch. A hard decision as I still hold my RN. Can not get to sleep. Still trouble after 25+ of my 40 years straight 12 hour nights. Ugh! Got my cottage, started a little business on the side....busy finding the days fly by now! More smiles than tears! Trying to get past the hurt of a year ago. That has been the most difficult thing. Most days I leave it. Only resurfaces when I travel back and happen to see those who were so cruel and are back-stabbers. Had attended a colleagues funeral. Got through it because that day was to honor her! I have decided life really is too short not to be happy. And I am HAPPIER! Again thanks. Please be careful. I pray for you!

I was honest

I have not worked since April 18th, got my last paycheck this week. I am still adjusting to having my own life. After working straight nights for so many year sleeping well is a problem right now. Also trying to figure out a healthy routine. I retirees and relicated....still unpacking. First summer off in 40 years.

I am doing ok. So busy packing and prep to move. I had intended to move over a year not 2 months! There was a family gathering a couple of days ago and many just learned of my retirement....so there were a few tears as I explained. But I am better away from there...work I mean. I do still have several friends who work there. One was beginning to feel bullied....also close to retirerment. Sad. I sadly do believe there will be gossip because I have seen it happen there. Nurses in the clique who feel they are so superior. Some of them are who stabbed me in the back. Karma will have to deal with them. I pray I will never be like that! Thank you for your kind thoughts!

Yes I realize I have been havi g an adjustment to loss....and I knew it would be difficult leavi g no matter when I decided to do so. In taking control by leaving I did act...I kept my dignity. It's been hard. There are financial classes and advisors. I have an advisor....I have invested since 21. Emotional prep...not so much. But I have many goals and plans....I will be ok. I am lucky I had options.

About 4 hours left....honestly it has been so emotional I am kind of glad I will be gone....kind of wished (even thought this sounds very harsh) but where was all this support when I was going through personal hell???

I did my exit interview and was frank.

So this will be my last week end of working in the unit I gave my life too...then 2 shifts after that. Bittersweet. I am so trying not to allow the last month's to ruin my 40 year career of doing so much good. I honestly wonder if I can move past this great hurt....never should have been that way... but it was...just could not handle the toxic environment anymore. Sad to see that happens to an area I so loved.

Yes I guess that us true. I have 5 more shifts. It just does not seem real yet.

Yes that is how I feel. I have never liked gossip anyway. Now knowing they will be doing so about me does hurt.....buy it will not really matter. They belittle to make themselves feel superior....some go along out if fear wanting to fit in. Cliques are Toxic!

Well I was thinking of leaving at 62....so yes I feel bullied to leave. Yet I will now be living at my lake cottage full time with plenty to do. A dream realized. I can over think things. But once I am moved and settled things will be better. I had wanted a few more improvements done but in time now. I do know I am not alone, yet this is something you never think will happen you know? It's not like I was a slacker. In fact I would also be criticised for being too serious and focused on work at the start of my shifts. Guess you can not win.

Again thank you. My head knows you are right....my heart still is searching. Some days are better, some worse. One coworker who knows what has been going on said to me she felt like management won. Like I allowed it. But to continue would ruin my health and put my licence at risk. I did state my truth...but it's "spitting in the wind". The lawyer confirmed this. Exit interview is suppose to be confidential but I wonder how frank I really can be?

Thank you. I am just so deeply hurt you know? I just really wonder what I really did wrong....I know I need to let it go....but it's so hard.

I have 7 more shifts to go after tonight....will be leaving after 40 years as an RN in the same hospital. While I have over-all loved what I have done its gotten difficult the last 2 or so years. New manager who micro-manages....just feel bullied to leave. I am 61 in April and am told I am "golden" to retire by my financial advisors....still worried but think I will be ok esp. when SS kicks in! I have been grieving already...pretty much crying as I come across things for former families I cared for...the thank you notes. I know I have done good no matter what BS this manager has said to and about me. Just so hurt though...because co-workers back-stabbed me often. No one talked to me...and that is what hurts. To feel you are not able to ask questions, to be yourself, and Be Supported after giving your life??? I will be ok....Right???