*holds hands up*
I have mental health issues, and i have had two major breakdowns in the past two years. At the moment its been classified as 'depression' and 'anxiety' but im wondering if there is something else in there.I feel ashamed and the people who are supposed to understand and care, do not. At least 75% of the patients we care for on our ward have some form of dementia so you would think that the nurses on the ward would have a little compassion for one of their own with mental health problems.After the nurse who committed suicide due to the information leak about the royal family it was horrendous on the ward as it was constantly being discussed using derogative terms and i felt dirty. If this is what they were saying about that nurse then what must they think about me who was admitted to her own hospital and appeared on the admission system with exactly what she was admitted with.
No support from my manager and when i mentioned about coming back from maternity leave was met with the comment 'we cant be dealing with you having another break down, things are busy enough as it is'. Im sitting here half way though my maternity leave and im feeling guilty for leaving the ward short staffed, wondering if me going back early would help them and then im met with the above comment. I do my job to the best of my ability, i give 100% and i mentally beat myself up when i miss or forget things just like other nurses. But i could do with some support when things arent going well for me, please dont belittle me or make comments about me, a little support, a kind word, hell even just speaking to me helps. Mental illness isnt contagious, so dont avoid me when im down.
Im still me.