im now a "second year" nursing student, i start back up in august.
i had only been in a hospital 2 times before my clinicals, never worked in healthcare at all...so needless to say in those clinicals i was horribly nervous and awkward.
so i thought this summer i would get a job to acclimate myself to patient care so i could focus more on school when it started back up instead of worrying about moving people the right way or how to wake someone up
well i got hired in at select specialty, an extended acute care facilty where theres tons of vents and trachs, dialysis and wounds abounds. im a nurse extern as of now but i do all aide work. its like learning an entirely different world.
ive made dumb mistakes here and there but yesterday was awful. im so disheartened and it makes me wonder if other people have been this dumb
i dont know why it was so bad, i didnt think my mind was somewhere else but it mustve been.
i put a cup of water in an ntl patients room for one..ugh thank god she didnt drink it
as if that wasnt bad enough, later in the day i had a sweet little lady up in a chair, who happened to be on a dobhoff tube, i had to get her back in bed and someone from respiratory came in to help me. i didnt know that he wasnt used to handling people when he offered, so the transfer was a little unsteady. when we went to put her back in, everything seemed ok, so i left. the nurse found me a few minutes later and demanded to know what was wrong about how i just left the patient, i felt like i just ran into a brick wall..i walked into her room and still didnt really see the problem, until i saw that the tape from the tube was no longer on the little ladies nose, but at about chest level down the tube, we had pulled it out atleast 5-6 inches. i was horrfied, managed to maintain myself in the room but then left and lost it, i cried for a good 5 minutes.
i have never felt so awful....im terrified of hurting someone and being a stupid nurse.
i know i will never make this mistake again...but im horrified thinking about what other mistake i have yet to make...
i feel like i dont deserve to be halfway through a nursing program and do such stupid things ...