I attended a program here in Colorado that was called an "accelerated" program. I signed a contract with a local hospital to work for two years after I passed the NCLEX-RN and they paid half of my...
That sounds like way too heavy of a load for anyone! You really should give yourself credit for giving it your all everyday with such a load of responsibility. I worked for hospice for almost 2 years...
I am also a new RN and I definitely still have my days of feeling totally inadequate! But don't put so much pressure on yourself! You just need to do the best you possibly can with the experience...