To the OP, I start on my own as an RN in mid September. Ready, but still scared as hell. Everything the OP mentioned, I could see myself going through. I can tell she worked in geriatrics. Heart problems and having to get up every time you turn around to pee. Of course it takes forever and a day to get them oob!! Spent 18 months as a tech on a post CABG unit. Looking back on it now, I don't know how I ever took care of these geriatric pt's. SOOOOOOOOO much much much more happier as a pediatric RN. Everyone on the floor works together and you don't get a lot of BS. Think about it, to be a peds nurse and survive, you have to truly be a kind and compassionate person to handle sick babies. People say kids whine too much, noway that is the adults, calling for their 35 meds/day they take to add another 3 years to their life. One thing that drives me crazy with med-surg geriatric care, is the lack of quality of life, and denial of pt's that should so be in hospice. How many 91 y/o do you see still taking Lipitor, c'mon people, really gimme a friggin' break.