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    Being setup?

    Umm, I don't know what to say other than you could benefit from professional help. Good luck.
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    Student with ADHD

    I apparently didn't cope very well as I ended up on an ADHD med for the 2nd semester. I was diagnosed with ADD a MILLION years ago as a child, then again as an adult. I plod along without meds, and can deal most of the time but the rigors of nursing school was too much. As far as how I cope in the work setting, I use a "brain sheet." It is simply a sheet of paper with the names of pts, room numbers, how they take their meds and code status. (I still always check the chart as those sheets are not exactly up to date.) I use the sheet for finger sticks, BP's, orders, pertinent observations, etc. That way, I don't have to rely on my busy brain to recall something that happened earlier. I can't even remember a blood sugar value from the pt to the cart (maybe 10 ft) so I know better than to try to recall a value or instance from 4 hours ago. We all have our tools to get along. You will develop yours. Best of luck!
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    I’m burnt out

    I agree with evastone, you must take care of yourself. Your employer doesn't give a rat's *** if you're hungry, tired, stressed, etc. It's your job to tend to take care your own needs. TAKE your breaks. Go pee. Eat. Hell, go sit on the toilet just to breathe for a minute. All that noise and stress will be there when you get back. I promise. When they try to call you in, say no, sorry, not happening today/tomorrow. Don't give a reason. It's not their business. If they try to guilt trip, stay firm. Keep in mind that the hospital managed to run before you got there and will continue to do so in your absence. You, however, may NOT continue to run if you allow yourself to be used up. Burnout is real. Please advocate for yourself. By taking your scheduled time off, you will have more free time to possibly socialize more and establish some friendships or pursue hobbies. Work/life balance is vital to mental health for most people. You are in control of that balance. The choice is yours to make. Best of luck!
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    The Stumblebutt Chronicles

    Yep, there's nothing quite like smelling of gastric contents and iron for the balance of the shift. I've had many days like that Viva. Many, many, oh-so-very-LOOOOONG days...
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    Recently dx'd bipolar: Any chance of surviving nursing?

    I'll answer my own question: No. At least, not at this time. I've had to bow out of working due to meds and their side effects. I was getting very worried about my ability to pass meds as I would give someone their pills, then nearly have a stroke on the way back to the med cart worrying that I gave the wrong person the wrong meds. I felt like I was a danger to the very people I was entrusted with caring for. So, I made the decision to go PRN. I haven't worked a shift yet as my confidence is non-existent. Maybe down the road a ways. They say when one door closes another opens. I'll let you know if that rings true.
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    Anyone Bipolar???

    I describe my hypomania/mania as the "too toos". I am "too" happy, angry, horny (well... I am!) or too sad, too enthused, too excitable, too full of too many ideas, too inspired, too moved, too involved, too alert, I could just go on forever. "Hyperbole" is one word that describes mania - everything is the bEST, the greatEST, the moST, the cutEST, etc... Oh how I do agree! It's all or none, never "in between". (Whatever that is). I've been up up UP lately, so haven't spent too much time in one spot. Too busy trying to remodel the entire house all at once...:) Never fear, I have a med review in 4 days so I'll just ride the tide until then. Maybe I should lay off of the caffeine? :selfbonk:
  7. I am truly sorry to hear about your situation. It has to be really tough to deal with not only the physical/mental aspects of your limits, but to be turned away at every potential job as well? I can't imagine how hard it's been. Have you looked into being a phone nurse? I don't know where you live, but we have a few MD's here that only employ RN's as their after-hours/weekend triage nurses who work at CPU's and have no direct pt contact. I think the VA has the same thing, as I was looking at them for a job at one point, but they wanted RN's only as well. With a Masters, you may be able to get into a management position that doesn't include direct pt care. I would talk to an advisor at your local college/university and explain your situation at see what they have to say. I truly hope you find something that you can do that you'll find fulfilling. The best of luck to you.
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    Can't work 3rd shift due to Seroquel @ night

    reallyconfused: you are more than welcome to post here in my humble opinion. yes, i know what's causing a lot of the anger, and i've talked about it until i'm blue in the face but it doesn't seem to do any good. the thing is, i'm just so tired of being edgy and mad all of the time. i simply lack the energy to sustain it anymore, yet, there it is. no matter what. (*sigh*). it's a wonder any of us can manage to drag ourselves out of bed and do whatever needs to be done of a day, but we do. i keep telling myself it doesn't have to be this hard, but what if it does? is this as good as it gets? hope tells me otherwise, that we will prevail, and that there is happiness and contentment to be had. if anyone figures out the answer to that million dollar question, let me know, will ya?
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    Can't work 3rd shift due to Seroquel @ night

    "I am also on Cymbalta which in my case is a joke. I don't feel anything like those commercials show people running out and having a great time with their families and pets. I feel like a zombie and so tired all the time." I know! What is that about?! People all mopey and such, then living life to the fullest, skipping though the daisies on a beautiful Spring day...Sheesh! It would be nice if they worked like that, but that pesky "reality" thing always gets in the way. I'm a zombie most of the time, too. Especially if (when) I don't get enough sleep. I've read that benzo's rewire your brain as well, but the MD's still rx them just the same. Would they rx them for their own family members? It makes you wonder. I have a call out to my psychiatrist right now for a med change, and I'm soooo scared about what will be rx'd next. As if we don't have enough problems? I'm so, so very sorry to hear about your son. I simply can not imagine the depth of loss you've had to endure. Prayers to you and here's to wishing you one good night's sleep. A string of them would be better though, so I'll wish that for you instead.
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    Can't work 3rd shift due to Seroquel @ night

    I am so sorry you have to deal with the addiction, I know it's not easy. It doesn't make you any less of a person, though. PTSD is a hard one to deal with under the best of circumstances, and I can see very easily why there would have been a need for meds. I was on Klonopin for quite some time, but have since stopped taking them. I do feel the need to have them, but don't know if it's addiction or a real need. Is there a difference? The line is usually blurred between the two for me. Thank you for your earlier response. Sometimes things get so out of focus I don't know what I'm doing. I do hope, however, that there are others with bipolar disorder reading these posts and getting something useful out of them. We have to support each other the best we can, regardless of dx's. Someone who's not a nurse just can't truly understand what we go through on a daily basis. Add to that any type of dx and the difficulty is compounded. Thanks for letting me ramble. Again!
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    Can't work 3rd shift due to Seroquel @ night

    I'm thinking of cutting back to more part-time right now, as full time is a little over my head I think. A nurse I work with was out of the workforce for 9 years d/t her bipolar illness, and is doing "OK" right now, but she misses a lot of days as well. Not that I'm the best person to get advice from, but if I was entering the workforce right now, in this condition, I would start either prn or just a couple of days a week. I may be heading in that direction myself. The very best of luck to you whatever you decide.
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    Can't work 3rd shift due to Seroquel @ night

    I have spoken at length with my MD, psychiatrist, and therapist. I start group on Thursday, and hope that will help. It is very difficult to be so angry all of the time, to (want to) fly off of the handle at the smallest of things...it does take everything I have to present myself as a level-headed, rational, functional nurse. I frequently question my ability to continue working, as it seems to get harder daily. Then, I get so frustrated I just want to hide in the linen closet and cry. I have read and been told that it can take quite some time to find the right "cocktail" of meds to be anything close to fully functional. The last med they tried me on in addition to the Depakote was clonidine, and that was a disaster. My next appt they will likely rx something new, which is really hard to deal with when I have to take a new med and run off to work, hoping beyond hope I don't have a breakdown right in the middle of a shift (like I did on the clonidine). The sad and scary part is I'm better now than I have ever been , but I'm far from "good". Financially, I just don't know how we would make it if I couldn't work. However, if it comes to that, then it does. We'll get along somehow, I suppose. Today is not one of my better days. I was much better yesterday. Maybe I'll be OK tomorrow? I guess I'll see when it gets here. Thank you for responding. Please pray for me. I need it today.
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    Can't work 3rd shift due to Seroquel @ night

    Oh, I understand exactly! With each episode (I'm an ultradian rapid cycler. Horray.) my nerves are shot nearly all of the time. I have "moments" where I'm OK, but generally speaking I'm in a battle with myself to keep my anger in check most all of the time. At least outwardly. Inside I'm seething. But, I'm used to it, so I pull off Oscar winning performances at work daily. By the time I get home, I'm exhausted from the effort. We will survive, though. We just have to. Thanks for writing. It helps to see that I'm not alone.
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    Being a bi-polar nurse~what's it like?

    I'm glad to hear you're doing well on meds. I'm on Depakote, and it's doing it's job for the most part. Naturally, I wish to be "cured", but as we know, that's not going to happen. The job market for nurses sure has dried up lately! I do wish you the best of luck, and maybe, just maybe, we'll get through this thing.
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    What does State look for?

    Here's a big one that was pounded in my head in school: If they ask a question you don't know the answer to, the best response is: "I'm not sure, let me find someone who can answer that for you." Then, immediately proceed to finding the appropriate person to address their concern. That way, allegedly, it proves you know how to find the answer to a problem you may run into. We just had state leave this past Thursday for a re-visit after some tags, and I was getting hammered by a surveyor with questions that I had no idea about. (I've only been at this facility for 3 months, and have only been a nurse for 18 months, mostly nights). I used this response TO DEATH. They followed me on a med pass as well. (EEEKKK!!!) I just gave her a bit of background info on the res, their likes/dislikes, how they took their meds, (crushed, whole in applesause, etc), remembered the 6 rights, knocked on the door and announced myself, washed my hands or used hand sanitizer between each res, etc. Also, pay very close attention to meds that are to be given "before meals", "after meals" or "with food". We were tagged for that during our annual survey. I also tried to remember that they aren't ogre's, they are there to make sure the residents are being taken care of properly. They also offer a wealth of info, and most don't mind questions. (So long as you're not questioning facility policies of course!). We came away deficiency free this time. Whew! Only 363 days until the next one...