Sometimes you just have to go home, look your kids in the eye and tell them how much you love them.
I would want everything available to continue my life drugs, blood, vodka...But sometimes I have to take a step back, breath a little and then keep going. Working in aged care is very different to acute care. We deal with death a lot more and sometimes even wish for it. Nursing is a continual learning curve, just look at the stuff we have learned here, but sometimes there just isn't a "right" answer, no matter how hard we look, how much we know. Sometimes people die because of what they believe, they "know" that it is worth dying for. Just look at how many people have and are dying in Iraq at the moment because it is worth dying for, freedom, faith, love of country. I think that we need to let people die with impunity if it is important to them not to accept certain medical interventions. ( Not children I agree!!)
I really do fell so bad for you Deneen, but guess what? Emmas mum would move mountains for her and that (IMHO) is the most inportant thing to remember at times like this.