I recently passed my NCLEX and have just started my first job as an RN. I started my unit orientation with a preceptor a few days ago, and thus far I feel completely and utterly overwhelmed. The amount of new information to learn and comprehend within a short period of time is intimidating to say the least. It doesn't help matters that my preceptor is a little short with people and has been pretty unreliable. They have either been late or have called off each day that I was supposed to be paired with them. However, I do give them some credit because the day that I was with them, they were a pretty solid teacher (although a little impatient). I don't mean to complain, because I realize how very fortunate I am to have secured a position at a great hospital near me. I realize that I am lucky to be in the position I am in and that I have been given the opportunity to make a difference in the lives of others. I am just struggling a little bit at the moment. Don't get me wrong, I never expected everything to be easy by any means, I just didn't expect to question my own abilities quite as much as I have been recently. I didn't think that I would be left wondering if I can really handle this or if nursing is really the right fit for me. I am hopeful that this is something that will get better in time and will fade as I gain more experience. I am just at a loss for what I can do in the present to help myself get to that point. I don't want to dread going in every day. I would rather not feel the tremendous weight of pressure and anxiety as I prepare for each shift. With all that being said, I'm an optimistic person and will continue to go in and give it my best every day. I am determined not to give up and to keep pushing through it, I just hope that I do not lose my sanity in the process.