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I believe they said 240 applications - 90 interviews and 40 acceptances

Hi, just an update for all you guys for commented and showed me your kindness and support! The end of my orientation just came about and I was offered to stay in my position! My manager and educator met up with me today on my last day of orientation and told me that I really improved my game and really showed that I can handle being on the ICU. They told me though I did struggle, I really brought it to their attention that I can do this and it was not a mistake to bring me into the unit. I am scared of starting my first week by myself next week, but this really help me gain a tiny bit more confidence that they said all that. I thank you for all your support and comments and wanted to update you guys! Thank you!

Hi! That’s what my friends are saying as well. I been with 7 different preceptors this past 9-10 weeks. I am often forgotten when I come in and they are surprised that I am there. Sometimes, my main one gets canceled and on call a few times and I get toss to someone as soon as they noticed I am in. Even when it is known my own preceptor is off, I have to keep asking the educator or someone else whose schedule I have to be with for the next time. My preceptor do give me talks on what to improve on such as trying to talk to doctors more and being more aware. I take them and try to do my best, but I never thought it was that bad as management as put it. I knew there was things to work on, but didn’t think I was that bad. Thank you for your encouragement! I’m going to try to be a better ICU nurse. They say that if I need something I can ask them, but I don’t even know what I need so it’s like okayy.

I am scared of that happening, but you are right. Things happen for a reason. If it doesn’t work out here, then maybe a different unit or hospital is best. I will still try to give my next two/three weeks my best and prove them wrong. Thank you for your kind words and I wish you luck as well on your orientation! I just want the experience at least if I do go to a different place!

Work support, not really. I don't think they have anything like that. I do have support with some of my friends who are nurses. They're the one who actually told me that they felt like I should have an earlier meeting, instead of almost to the end of orientation. So I am going to work hard and prove them wrong. My childhood definitely made me a nervous wreck that I am today with lack of confidence. Everything was never good enough and being the oldest of 5 siblings did not help at all. I was constantly compared to my other siblings and I actually ended up going to nursing school as a second degree, but it is never good enough for them. I have had therapy before in college and it helped a lot, but they stopped when I graduated. I do plan to get therapy when I can, but expenses now are really tight. I actually moved out a few months ago to get out of that environment and say that I'm a lot happier than before and better in terms of mental health, but of course, things don't change in a day. Thank you for your kind words and I really appreciate your support.

Talking in general is okay, but I have issues with the medical terms! I will try your advice! I have been looking into speech therapy for accent modification or extra help, but they are expensive! I do have some nurses friends to help with and I will definitely planning to practice with them. Thank you for your kind words! I will definitely work my butt off these two weeks to prove that I can stay in that setting.

Thank you! I will look into it!

They didn't mention transferring, more I need to improve my confidences and need to go back to critical care books. The funny thing is finding a job was so hard for me. It took me a few months with the whole situation of cov19 and hiring freezes. This was actually the only job that was offered to me and I took it. I mean, I did like the unit and actually planned to start with med surg, but somehow, I got hired on this unit. I applied to everything too. Thank you for your kind words and for replying.

It is about 12 weeks long? I am in my 9 week starting next week, so I should have 3 more left. I would be going to nights on week 10. Yea, it was my first one to review progress so I was caught off guard. My other friends said they have theirs every 2 weeks or at least a few times. I didn't realize it was a thing. They told me to step it up and suggest for me to review my material again by using a critical care book and just improve my confidence. They did not mention any transfer options and I don't think there's any openings in the hospital. Yea, I was a bit stung when I heard that comment. Thank you for replying to me.

I have a few weeks till the end of my orientation. I am a freshly graduated nurse who is working on the ICU. I really like my unit and finds the staff really helpful and really to help me learn new things. The past few weeks have been pretty bad especially last week. It was the busiest week for me and the unit in general especially with everything picking back up. I had a few transfers and keep getting new admissions. I made some mistakes or did not catch on to certain things, so my preceptor had to correct me. I learn from them and know better now. My confidence was slowly being built and I thought I was doing okay. I do forget to do certain things, but I am honest about it when my preceptor ask. I knew that I had things to work on, but didn't know it was that bad. I had my first meeting in regards to my orientation and it went really bad. They were saying that they felt I might not be the best fit for the unit and I really need to prove myself. They said that I seem unsure when I am talking to doctors and seem like I don't know anything about my patients. I have horrible time with rounds and talking to doctors in general. I am a pretty shy person who, which as my username implies, lacks confidence in general with myself due to years of just being talked down to all my life by everyone even my loved ones. When I am questioned, I blank out even when I know my material. I am trying to improve myself as best as I can and trying to review my material. They say I lack critical thinking and don't understand why the other new orienteers are doing better and why I am struggling. (the other orienteers have experience either as a nurse or a PCT on the unit). I have a heavy accent as well as English is not my first language. I was told to learn how to talk especially with my pronunciation with the drugs. I am trying really hard now to review and to somehow build more confidence in myself in the next few days that I am off. I am writing different words down, looking up their pronunciation and repeating them to myself. I plan to come even earlier than I have been to look up patients' charts. However, I would admit the meeting really made me lost the little confidence that was slowly being built. I feel so overwhelmed and don't want to lose my job. I really love nursing and the patients in general, so I want to be able to improve myself as best as I can to show that I really do want to be here and be able to perform at the level they want me to. I could really use some advice on what I can do to improve myself and tips. Thank you.