I promised myself that when I passed the NCLEX-RN, that I would make this post. If you are reading this, you are probably searching through multiple forums for that little bit of hope just like how I was. I know this is a long post, but If I am at least able to help one person from this, it would make me so happy. I know you may be feeling depressed, hopeless, lost, and…stuck.
Don't Give Up
Regardless of your situation, please don’t give up.
TIP: It does not matter how slowly you go as long as you do not stop.
I remember reading a post here and it said, “it doesn’t matter how or when you get there…as long as you get there” and that stuck with me.
I know how hard it is to feel that heaviness every day. No matter what. It. Never. Goes. Away. You may be feeling like life isn’t worth living anymore and everything feels pointless. You feel like everyone is going on with their lives and you are stuck with this spiraling depression and hopelessness that you carry every single day. As if nursing school and other life events weren’t enough. Even a simple conversation with someone is so draining. I know the feeling. Please don’t give up.
You WILL Pass One Day
Regardless if that is on your 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 5th try &, etc. Keep pushing. Remember to give yourself a break. I know it’s hard because you may be feeling guilty for not studying. But trust me it will only burn you out.
You know when someone says, “it’s all in your mind.” This phrase is so frustrating to hear, but so helpful. What really helped me the weeks before my test was telling myself “you have done everything you need to do to pass this test. You know everything you need to know to pass. If you don’t know it, you know the principles needed to get the question right.”
This helps more than words can describe. Sometimes it all comes down to managing your anxiety and being confident with your knowledge. If I can do it, you can too. No matter how long it takes.
Remember, You Only Fail When You Stop Trying
1st try: 265 questions.
2nd try: 265 questions.
3rd try: 75 questions.
4th try: 114 questions. PASSED
What I Recommend
Lacharity Prioritization, Delegation, and Assignment
The worst feeling was failing after I gave it my all. I felt like no matter how hard I try, I will never pass. I would’ve felt better if I know I didn’t put much effort and failed but no. I felt stuck. I felt like it was impossible for me to pass. But I kept reminding myself that I didn’t come all this way to stop. There was more to my journey and there is more to yours. You will be an RN one day. Just take it day by day and meditate, pray, do something each day for yourself. There were so many things coming to my head. Thoughts that I couldn't even say out loud. “what is the point of anything?” “I don't even want to be here anymore” I isolated myself from everyone. Although I had an amazing support system. I still felt alone. Alone with my thoughts, I could never get away from. I mean, how do you tell the people you love that your depression and anxiety is getting so bad you find it hard to even exist? Where do you let these thoughts go? It had been so long since the last time I didn't feel dead inside. I was literally hanging by a thread. If you are reading this, you are probably tired of pretending and may even be close to giving up. You don't know how much more you can take. You feel like you have nothing left in you and you are trying to hard to be positive but still feel so broken. Keep praying, keep putting those positive affirmations in your head. Trust me, you will feel a difference and you WILL PASS. Stay consistent. It's okay if there are days you don't have the energy to be as productive. Be proud of yourself for even trying.
TIP: There is always a light at the end of the tunnel even if the tunnel feels longer than you thought it would be.
I wouldn’t have passed if it weren’t for the comfort I found reading through these forums, the people in my life, and God.
I Am Proud to Say I Am Officially an RN
This is so much more than two extra letters to my name. I pray whoever reads this finds some comfort in this. Please don’t hesitate to comment back and I will do my best to get back to you.
I wish you all the best and I am praying for you, future RN.