I don’t mean to sound cold, but my personal opinion is that weighed in the balance a million or two of lives is a small price to pay to not destroy the economic future of a generation. The suffering is meaningless to me.
To be honest with you, living in a lab and researching is so incredibly appealing to me. If it paid better that would be my goal.
Lastly, I will level with you as to why I have so little empathy, etc. My latest therapists opinion is I have high functioning ASD, formerly Asperger’s. That’s how I was able to do all the didactic coursework learning for a demsn program in 9 weeks with no background in the sciences. I’m not normal. It’s hard for me to communicate with others. I use forum interactions like this to learn what does and does not offend others so I don’t share those opinions in public settings. I often offend people or am misunderstood and have no idea why.