Ugh, I failed out of nursing school this semester. It was horrible. I have a documented disability with an accommodation plan through the school. In my plan it states that if I have some sort of disability crisis before or during an exam that I can meet with the instructor and disability services about it. I had this crisis before our Endocrine exam. I have anxiety issues. We was supposed to take our exam at one campus and the software for the exam wasn't installed on the new computers which made us have to move campuses, I was not prepared for this. It threw my anxiety into a tailspin. Prior to taking the exam I went to the instructor crying and told her that I didn't think I could take the exam, I was told to breathe, breathe and breathe some more, I eyeballed her during the exam and she kept trying to reassure me that it would be ok, but it wasn't. My focus was gone. My regular instructor came into the classroom and I was almost the last person to leave the room. I, of course, failed the exam badly. I've never failed an exam like this. When I went to my instructor after the exam she suggested that I see a therapist, I told her I already do, not that was any of her business. She then suggested I see another one?
So as you can imagine after this one test that totally blew my confidence in test taking. The test that I bombed was Endocrine and that is not an easy subject but I had felt pretty good about it prior to having the issues with the computers and such. I suck at test taking as it is.
After failing it and speaking to my instructor and then crying in another instructors office for an hour I decided to go home and debate about letting disability services know since I didn't want to get on their bad side (our Dean), I thought about it for a week and when we was at another campus (our class as a whole) I went to one of the instructors to ask about it, they basically told me tough luck. I've already seen the exam and that's that. I wasn't sure what to do after that. I just kept hoping for the best and flying under the radar (we had some problems with the accommodation problem and then Dean in the Spring). I kept on going to class and kept on failing test, not failing horribly but nonetheless failing it, the one test that made the most difference was that Endocrine test, the test that I tried to get help with, the test where I went to the instructor. Again, my confidence and worry just kept getting in the way of the test, I knew the material. Our policy for testing is you must have a 78%, it's always been that. If you don't make a 78% you fail. After our final was taken there was several people who failed, who literally failed the class, it was posted as a final grade. Then they decided to throw out another couple of questions to push some people over to the passing side after the first final grade was posted. We was always told if it's 77.9% it doesn't matter, we will not give it to you.
In our clinical setting it's either pass or fail, if you don't go and don't attend and don't complete care plans and such then you fail. It's all or none. You have to attend. If you don't they do a makeup case study, which is not the same as clinical experience. However this is how they do things. I have attended all of my clinicals. I have done great with all of my work. I have had nothing but good and positive feedback in my clinical settings.
I have a classmate who had to obtain a lawyer because of our Dean trying to remove her from the program and she wasn't even interviewed about the incidence that happened at school, she was just written up and was fixing to be kicked out of the program. I had spoke to her about everything and she suggested that I do something about all of this, file a complaint against the nursing department. I just don't know what to do. I have to apply for readmission and the last thing I want to do is upset them and make it so that I can't get back into the program. But there is no guarantee that they will let me back in anyways.
I am just trying to figure out what to do? Bite my tongue about what happened with the Endocrine test? Hope that they just let me back in when the fall semester starts? My current professor is horrible. She would say mean and snarky things to me, not to all of the class but to me. I don't ever want to be in her class again.
I just don't know what to do. Any thoughts? Even if it's just to tell me to get over it then I will at least see what other people think about it. I have another classmate telling me to do something about it as well. I just don't know if I should hold my tongue or have the disability services file a complaint?