No matter the outcome.
I just want to say, you did your best and I am super proud of you!
I understand your feelings and what you must be going through. I take my NCELX tomorrow for the second time. I graduated June 2018. Took it first time in Nov 2018. Failed it. Went into depression for awhile and finally tomorrow I am taking it.
I tried MK audios, uworld, Nclex mastery. Yet it wasn't enough. Now I think back to it... my mind wasn't really there to absorb content. I took awhile to take my test because I had family, money issues, personal health problems. SO much was going on my mind was "mumble jumble."
After 1st NCLEX attempt, I used that time to get my health on track, focus on my goals, self evaluated me, and revamped my study habits.
Taking questions everyday and taking notes from UWORLD rationales didn't work for me. I wasn't getting the big picture. And I didn't know how to connect the dots of nursing content. My weakness was content.
I bought Saunders and did UWORLD again. Separated the topics in maternal, peds, adult med surg cardiac, respiratory, etc. When I finished content on maternity, I ONLY did UWORLD questions on maternity. Then I would go through the rationales. Look over the topics or condition that I didn't grasp.
( I know. People say don't do it because NCLEX is going to give us random questions from different systems. Do I care? No because I told myself, that this is probably what's going to work for me and it did.)
Next, I used Sarah Registered Nurse RN. She was the silver-lining that helped me connect the nursing content. I hope you try her page. Trust me. You just have to find a study method that helps you put the content together so you can see the bigger picture. I believe you CAN DO IT.