I decided years ago I wanted to be a nurse, and I became a pre-nursing student my freshman year of college, not knowing that my school offered a "direct admit" program for high school students who met the requirements - they would automatically go into the nursing program once completing their prereqs, rather than having to apply to it sophomore year.
Well, undiagnosed/untreated bipolar disorder got the best of me that year and I ended on a 2.67 gpa. My school requires at least a 3.0. It's whatever. I then went to a community college for a semester and landed myself a whopping 1.2 gpa. Then I had a breakdown and left school for a semester, went to therapy, found the right meds, etc. Now I'm back and I have a 3.6 gpa. The problem is that my school and all the other BSN programs in the state only accept 2 prereq retakes, and obviously you're a better candidate if you have 0. I have 3 pre-req retakes (a&p twice, micro once). On top of that, I have an entire transcript from a school showing I had a 1.2 gpa, and that looks really bad.
All the ADN programs I've applied to rejected me, and I don't even wanna waste my time with the BSN ones. Not to mention almost all of them require you to get admitted to the university, complete a bunch of other classes that have to be taken on their campus, and then you can APPLY for the nursing program with absolutely no guarantee of being accepted.
I just don't know what to do. I don't want to believe that because of one bad year I'm screwed out of getting into any programs, because I only want to be a nurse. I've tried to talk myself out of it, I've started to pursue other majors, other healthcare paths, and tried to convince myself that I don't want to be a nurse, but at the end of the day, it's all I want.
I'm currently a psych major because I figured it makes more sense to get some sort of degree since I'm already two years into college, and worse comes to worst I could shoot for ABSN programs later on. But every single day I spend at school I feel like I'm wasting my time because I'm not pursuing what I actually want to be.
I just wanted to make a post and see if anyone knows something I don't and/or can make any recommendations.