I have been accepted into a nursing program (RN) "provisionally" due to the track through which I had to apply, which holds my seat in the cohort I selected. My acceptance becomes complete upon my completion of A&P 1 with a grade of B or better. So, I'll be "official" in barely more than two weeks if I don't crash and burn before then. It'd take a serious screw-up on the last remaining A&P exam to drop my grade below the B range.
I don't believe that I ever said that I considered nursing to be a vocation... but I don't think there needs to be this much differentiation between what is a "profession" and what is a "vocation". Either way, it's a job, where you have to have a certain amount of knowledge in order to perform your designated duties expertly, you have to dress a certain way, you have to yes-sir and no-ma'am your way through the day, etc., trading away the time you will never be able to get back (which you'd much rather be spending doing things you thoroughly enjoy) for a bunch of stupid green paper that you're told to use to buy back the freedoms and rights that our human ancestors enjoyed as birthrights but have now been appropriated into "privileges" for us.
Yeah, I know, sounds pretty cynical... but I have nothing good to say about the current system. My truth is that I don't actually want to have any kind of what the modern system calls "a career". Careers are BS. Humans aren't made for "careers". Heck, I see things even on this forum where people complain about this aspect of nursing and that aspect of nursing and whatever. I put up another thread about why there is such a push to get men into nursing and one of the responses came from a male nurse, who said among other things that he left bedside nursing because he was always being used for his muscle, to lift heavy patients, and it had already screwed up his back and it was only a matter of time before he'd sustain a career-ending injury on the job if he didn't leave bedside nursing. Then I hear of nurses who have become calcified after years on the job... my cousin (an RN for at least 17 years) has talked about all of the hardships nurses face (mostly mentally)... if this "career" were really a good match for human nature, humans wouldn't suffer all of these problems on account of having this "career". I can say the same of pretty much every other "career" out there.
There are only two "career fields" where people never want to retire, generally speaking - artists and clergy. (Being an artist of any type doesn't pay well, and I'm essentially an atheist.) Beyond that, it's always "how many more years do I have to suffer through this before I can finally pack it in and retire?". Nobody _wants_ that kind of mentality, no matter how much they may say that it's a necessary evil (it isn't).
There is that part of me that wants to drop from the nursing program because I know I'm only doing it because it's something I'm sure I could do well, it pays well, it allows above-average flexibility, and there seems to be a demand for strong men in nursing. (I saw it myself when my wife, a delightfully large lady, had a hiatal hernia repair in 2015. They wheeled her into her room on the gurney after she came out of recovery and at the time there were no people available who were strong enough to transfer her. In essence, she had to get up herself and get into the other bed herself... after just waking up from a relatively major surgery.)
I'm not doing it because this is my dream. My dream is to change the world. I see the suffering of humankind more acutely than most if not all people I've ever encountered, and not a day goes by when I'm not flooded with the feeling that I have to DO SOMETHING about that (which is, in my case anyway, accompanied by the knowledge of what actually has to be done... meaning that I know exactly what I'd do, if only I had the time and money to be able to do it instead of wasting my life making money). Yesterday I did this week's Ethics assignment, and I nearly cried reading the chapter (on Native American ethics). I have been more fired up doing this Ethics stuff than I've been with pretty much any class I've taken in recent memory.
I know I'm not going to change the world as a nurse. That has nothing to do with nursing; nobody ever changes the world in the course of their "job" or "career", at least not for the better. You look at anyone who has made lasting positive changes in the _world_ (not just "in a few people's lives"), and they didn't do it as some "employee" of some establishment. Nursing would be a means to an end for me - the end being the ability to finance my dream when I wasn't fortunate enough to be born into (or marry into) money, or into a family that has any desire to give much of its available financial support to its kids / kids-in-law.
That's why I really don't want to be wasting my time learning a bunch of stuff that I will never use. I'm happy to learn what I will use later on, and maybe it isn't so bad for younger people who don't have as much going on in their lives such that they can focus more time on rote-memorizing a bunch of random facts that they may just use 20 years down the road when they get unexpectedly rotated to a unit they aren't familiar with... but I already have a lot on my plate, my wife has been increasingly unable to do what she used to do to help out because all-day "morning sickness" has kicked in and probably will stick around until June (if this pregnancy goes like her first did), and then come December, one month before my scheduled start for clinical classes, I'll be a father again. My time is going to be at a serious premium if I want to be the kind of father that my kids need, and the kind of partner / helper that my wife needs. I don't think I can be blamed for not wanting to waste my precious time learning stuff I will never need to use "on the job".
I don't accept the whole "well-rounded education" bit, in this context. By the time people get into nursing school, they already have a well-rounded education because they've graduated high school with good grades. (Only good grades will get you into a nursing program to begin with.) I won't argue "well-rounded education" generally, but by the time you hit college, you should already have enough of that and now it's time to specialize.
Maybe I should just give my spot in the nursing program to someone else more desirous of the "career" than I am. That is still an option on the table... especially now with the second baby coming. (It took six years to get the first pregnancy. Had I known that it'd take barely more than one year to get this one, I wouldn't have signed up for any of these classes this semester. But I do like to finish what I start.)
If things are only going to get harder in the clinical classes... to me that doesn't say "man, I'll probably fail"; rather, it says "man, I'll have to spend tons of time studying and doing homework in order to keep getting As, and that's time I won't have with my wife and kids when the kids will want it and the wife will need it".