I'm so sorry. 3 years ago, I had a similar situation. I'm sending you my love, support and encouragement. You saved their life, you were there and thank goodness for that!!!!!!
I would say, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE talk this one out. Go to a crisis counselor ,if you can. Maybe call your local police or fire and see who they process their situations with. I did, and it helped. Journal about your feelings, just get them out. We are nurses and handle life and death situations all the time, but We ARE HUMAN. It hurts, suicides and suicide attempts are all together different from " emergencies or illness" For me, there was something so terribly sad about a person hurting so much they wanted to end their life. I took it to my heart and it was tough. I still have nightmares about it. In 26 years of nursing, nothing impacted me like that did. Unfortunately, my school didnt act with any follow up for the students or staff ( SO NOT OK)
It's Ok to feel like you do, You will run the gamut on this one. I would swing from sadness( over her pain) to anger ( that she would do something like that at school and what if she had succeeded) to no confidence/anxiety ( I know I managed to keep her alive this time, but what about the next time) back to anger ( that my school chose to keep it quiet, even though 12 students knew she had taken the pills but didnt report and not make this a serious educational moment on the crisis that is suicide among young people) to being grateful that at that moment, I found enough calm to do what I needed to do, I was a nurse, I did what I was trained to do.
I cant send enough love to you right now. Big hugs. Please continue to process this. You are a nurse and thank God for you.