I can absolutely understand where you are coming from. I, too, am a new nurse (LVN/Tech) and have felt the very same way as you are feeling now. I have felt as though I don't fit in, that the other nurses isolated me, 'made' me feel inferior, disrespected, talked down to, and they spoke bad about me. I felt as though I had a rock in the pit of my stomach going into work when I was on shift with certain co-workers. I honestly felt that I couldn't do anything right. But then God tapped on my shoulder one day saying, "Let's take a look at the bigger picture here". Being a new nurse, you want to prove yourself; you want to prove to your co-workers that you are competent and knowledgeable. You are eager to 'get in there' and get things done. But my pride and ego got in the way of that. Was I teachable? Hmmm...some of the time. Sometimes I have not been and became defensive instead (being defensive is a big deal for me here). And along the line I made med errors because I was so busy trying to prove myself I didn't double check what I was doing. I had gone to the doctor (in house) directly in regards to patient care instead of going to the patient's RN because I felt as though I knew better what the patient needed (DO NOT EVER DO THIS). Very egotistical and prideful behavior on my part. I isolated MYSELF from my co-workers because I didn't want to participate in general drama instead of reaching out to them in a personal way. I complained about another nurse for being lazy while I was doing her work. In short, I created the problems I was having with my co-workers due to pride and ego. I have taken all of this in, realized the errors I have made, and am putting a shift on the way I do my job as well as how I interact with the other nurses. All I have control over is the way I react to any situation...I can not control anyone else. I have learned a very difficult lesson. I am not saying by any means this is YOUR situation. All I am saying is what happened to me and what I have learned.