The one thing I have been worried about are in fact things hitting close to home. I was very curious how I would take things i.e. would I have empathy or not and even sympathy. I decided to follow a cardiologist and surgeon (away from my "home hospital") in a different state even to test myself and see how I would be with patients and heart failure. While I shadowed for a week, I met 16 pts and watched a surgery. I was really surprised with myself that I really just wanted to soak in all the knowledge (pt history, meds given, why given, etc etc). I saw them in Heart Failure clinic, ICU, CCU, CVRR, and OR.
At my Residency Hospital (where I got my LVAD and Heart Transplants) I Volunteer and visit the patients who are waiting for LVAD implantation or HTx to answer any questions they might have to help settle any nerves.
I can never thank ALL of you Transplant Nurses enough for doing what you do!!!!! I cannot wait to join you one day!