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    Burnt out after only 6 months

    Thank you so much everyone for your responses. I have checked with HR and I do in fact need to stay for an entire year before transferring. I am so afraid of making the wrong decision. If I were to leave it may look bad to have left a job after only 6 months and I'm afraid it will close some doors down the line. I love my hospital system and it took me 8 months to get into this hospital as a new grad, I can't help but feel I'm throwing away a great opportunity 😞 I feel extremely guilty too because my coworkers and even NPs keep praising me for doing such a good job managing with the high demands of the unit and caring for my patients. It's just the chronically short staffing makes me so anxious, not knowing what kind of insane assignment I'll be walking into, whether a patient is going to decompensate at any given point on top of an already heavy assignment. I'm always on edge. It's not so bad when we have decent staffing. But still bad. I am afraid to talk to my manager. We have check ins every few weeks and I have already sort of expressed how I'm having a hard time coping emotionally. But I didn't go into too much detail. I guess I have some serious thinking to do...I really appreciate everyone's input ❤️
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    Burnt out after only 6 months

    Hi everyone. I've been a nurse for ~2 years. My first ~1.5 years as a new grad nurse were in a very happy laid back specialty, but ultimately I felt like I had no "real nursing skills" and made the switch to a very intense peds ICU where I've been for almost 6 months. Ever since I started in the ICU it has been an emotional rollercoaster of depression and anxiety for me. I had bad anxiety and from the minute I took PALS (pre-req for the position) and got super anxious, I knew it wasn't going to be easy. But I tried to push past the anxiety because I wanted to succeed. Orientation was rough too, I would get so anxious that at one point one of my preceptors suggested I get a new job. I have been on my own for 3 months now and have been doing really well. But nonetheless I am extremely burnt out, I still experience anxiety and depression when thinking about work. It's not the staff. The staff has been nothing but amazing, everyone from the providers to the educators to fellow nurses have played a role in making sure I am part of the team and that I feel supported. Everyone asks me if I like the job and I feel super bad because I lie and say I love it when I know my heart is just not there. The unit has been extremely high acuity lately (almost all patients are on some sort of device be it ECMO, CRRT, VADs, etc) and extremely short staffed. Management asks people to do overtime almost every day and I feel guilty because I never do. It's not the schedule either--I love night shift and working 3 12's. Every day before work I get super anxious, and depressed on my days off. People say give it a year for the feeling to go away but I don't know if I can. The thought of a patient coding on me makes me sick to my stomach. I constantly feel overwhelmed on the job with the difficult assignments despite people telling me I'm doing well. Lately we've also had a lot of death and each child's death has been so rough for me to process. I feel like Goldilocks where one unit is too boring and the next is too intense. I also feel guilty because I know so many people would love to have this job. I just genuinely feel like the ICU may not be for me. I feel stupid because what did I expect from a critical care unit? I don't want to be miserable, anxious and depressed every single day for the next 6 months until I make a year. Before transferring to ICU I considered OR (which I've always been super interested in but ultimately went with ICU because I wanted the skills and experience). I don't want to leave my hospital system, but I don't know how feasible it is to transfer to another unit at this point. I am just feeling so burnt out and don't want to give it more time. I don't know what to do with my life and don't want to burn bridges. Any advice would help 😞
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    Kaplan vs. NCLEX

    Stick with Kaplan! Make sure you do as many practice questions as possible. The NCLEX really is about learning how to take questions and the more you practice the better you will do. To be completely honest I HATED Kaplan at first. But my school paid for it so I felt obligated to use it. I thought it was incredibly hard and it gave me so much anxiety for the real thing. Honestly my scores were pretty similar to yours until the very end when something clicked and I magically started reaching those benchmarks they wanted us to reach. Don't just read the rationales, but actually try to understand them. Practice your lowest categories the most. I eventually supplemented with U-World. But honestly I think Kaplan is what really saved me as much as I hated it at first. So keep going and you'll get there I promise! Even if you need an extra week or two from your current test date. Personally I did find Kaplan to be way harder than the NCLEX. I remember getting like a 28% in one of the last question trainers or categories on something after I had been doing so well and I was devastated... but I passed the NCLEX in 75 questions on my first try 🙂 Good luck!!
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    NCLEX RN License In NY or NJ?

    He can take the NCLEX anywhere in the US, where it differs is what Board of Nursing he applies to for a license. I'm not too sure about NJ, but the job market in NY (especially NYC) is extremely tough for new grad nurses. I'm a new grad in NYC and I'm having a hard time landing an interview even with connections in a few hospitals. I know for sure I'm not the only one, as several of my classmates still don't have a job and I've also read about the tough job market in this website for ages. The job market is very competitive here. I'm guessing NJ would be a bit better, but I'm not 100% sure!
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    NICU or wait for peds job?

    Unfortunately nothing yet. It's weird because the recruiters at Hospital B are usually very good at responding! I did hear back from one of the managers from Hospital A but it's basically another waiting game. I'm thinking of following up again with hospital B this week. Even if it's not for the NICU job and just an adult nursing job. At this point I just want a job!
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    NICU or wait for peds job?

    Thank you all for your input. I've emailed the NICU recruiter and am waiting for a response. My connection from my dream hospital also told me that one of the NMs said she will contact me soon!! I hope either of these lead somewhere. I'm just so excited to work as a nurse!
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    NICU or wait for peds job?

    Hi everyone. This is partly hypothetical so bear with me... I am a new grad RN in NYC where the job market is pretty tough. I've been looking for a job for a month & a half, which I know really isn't thaaaat long for NYC. My dream is to be a peds nurse (peds med surg to eventually go to PICU) but there are very scarce openings for peds in general. Here's where it gets tricky for me: Hospital A is my dream hospital. It's a children's hospital that I've wanted to work at since I thought of becoming a RN. Most of the apps I send to this hospital system get flat out rejected. However an extended family member that has worked there for ~30 yrs recently spoke to 2 NMs about me. He got me their email addresses, but to my dismay they haven't replied to my emails. This was 2 weeks ago so I'm guessing their emails are very flooded by now to even remember to check/reply! He's very well liked there so he said if that doesn't work out he will talk to more NMs about me and hopefully someone will get back to me! This hospital is also a great commute from my apt. Hospital B is an affiliate of where I had my externship last summer. They have a great nurse residency program and accept new grads into many specialty units. I recently got an email from a recruiter wanting to set up an interview with a NM. She asked me what units interested me and I told her peds (gen peds, NICU, PICU), but unfortunately there were no peds positions. However, a NICU position recently opened up here. I was thinking about emailing her and asking if the NICU was an option for me now and if she'd still be willing to interview me. NICU isn't my preferred peds subspecialty, but it's still peds. Besides I'd rather do anything than ADULT med-surg. This hospital really wants to give me an opportunity to go for the specialty of my choice if available. The commute for this hospital is significantly longer. Both hospitals are amazing top teaching hospitals in NY and I'd be lucky to work in either one. I'm just torn whether I should continue to wait and see if my dream hospital connections get me in or if I should go ahead and inquire about the NICU job in hospital B before the position is filled. This was really long so thank you everyone who took their time to reply! Neither option is a guarantee, but a girl's gotta do something!
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    I went to NYU, but as a traditional student (not transfer or accelerated). However, Nutrition was one of the pre-requisites we had to take before starting nursing courses. I'm not sure if it's different for transfers or accelerated applicants.
  9. Are you sure you're doing it correctly? When I took the NCLEX ~3 weeks ago I got home and immediately did the PVT. It was my first time taking the test/doing the trick and I had put a made up credit card number. I got a pop up that said "invalid credit card" and my heart sank because I thought it was the bad pop-up. I then tried putting my actual credit card and exp. date and just changed the CVV code. That time around I got the good pop up! My point being that the nerves of just taking the test + doing the PVT for the first time could maybe have made you do it wrong! I hope you pass regardless!
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    Good Nursing Schools IN NY?

    NYU! I just graduated as a traditional BSN student in May and it was a wonderful educational experience.
  11. I just graduated from nursing school a few months ago and I can kind of understand your frustrations. I'm more on the introverted side too and I'm sure what you're feeling right now is very debilitating and daunting. When I had my med-surg clinicals, I HATED them. I thought, if this is nursing I'm not sure I want to do this. But the good thing about nursing is that there are tons of specialties and there is one for almost every personality type out there. As other posters suggested, have you considered outpatient services? I've heard there is a big need for nurses in these types of settings. Personally, I was feeling discouraged from nursing when I thought everything was like adult med-surg. Then I had my pediatrics clinical and an externship with a peds rotation, and I absolutely loved peds (peds med-surg in fact!). Same specialty (med surg) but different population (children) and it made a world's difference for me. I also did an OR and PACU rotation, and a 2-week periop immersion program and discovered another hidden passion for perioperative nursing. I'm currently looking for a job in either of these areas as a new grad because I believe it'll make me happier than being in adult med-surg. The atmosphere is just so much different! I really do believe you can find your role in a certain specialty. Don't give up just yet! You worked very hard and you haven't given nursing a real chance yet. If after a year of nursing in your desired specialty you're still feeling discouraged, then maybe you should look into something else. Best of luck :)
  12. Although not the same, I did an externship where I rotated to different units and I have to say--PACU was my favorite hands down! Like other posters said above, you won't really be doing much as a student nurse in any unit anyway and you will learn the "real" nursing stuff after graduation. I say you should go in with an open mind. The PACU is FILLED with learning opportunities. PACU nurses conduct HTT/Vital sign assessments very frequently after surgery, you get to hear report from anesthesia, you get to see pain control at its finest (med admin opportunities) post-surgery, you get to be a pro at patient education and also many hospitals consider PACU an intensive care environment!! You can get any type of patient. Yes, same-day surgery isn't as acute, but honestly some patients can still decompensated. In my externship I remember once a patient was extremely bradycardic after a very simple surgery and they were trying to get him stable again. Anything can happen!!! At the very least, you will hone skills that are essential for med-surg nurses such as med-admin, charting, patient education, and head to toe/ vital signs assessment (all FOUNDATIONS of nursing) over and over again on the same day! I really do believe you'll have a wonderful experience and become a wonderful nurse after graduation!
  13. Hey everyone, I'm a traditional student at NYU. Before getting to my nursing sequence I had a 3.73 cum. GPA. I've made 3.6's since I started nursing classes--which is lower than normal for me. I'm now 1.5 semesters from graduation and at a 3.69. But I feel like my GPA is going to drop even more this semester. Worst case scenario my cum. GPA upon graduation would be a 3.6. (Goodbye Cum Laude hopes!) Even though I know a 3.6 in & of itself isn't THAT bad, I keep stressing out over this! I'm just not sure what a good GPA to graduate nursing school with is, especially in NYC. I've lived here my whole life and have dreamt of working at NYP-Columbia (grew up in that neighborhood), but I heard they're very tough to get into. And the job market here is tough for new grads! I did an externship with NYU Langone and have excellent connections there, but NYP Columbia has always been my dream hospital to work at. I'm not sure how competitive my GPA is, especially when it feels like everyone else is getting 4.0's whereas I can study for dayssss and never get an A on a test. Add in the fact that I'd love to go to CRNA school but I'm afraid I'll fail out. I'm so overwhelmed by RN school, can't even imagine CRNA!! Am I over-stressing this GPA thing???
  14. I'm a traditional nursing student at NYU so I can offer some insight into the program. The way it works at NYU for traditional students is we take the pre-reqs the first 2 years and the last 2 years are the 4 "sequences"/semesters of actual nursing school. These are the 4 semesters accelerated students will take, for a total time of 15 months. Typically, accelerated students and traditional students are in the same classes all together for the nursing sequences. Tuition for NYU traditional students is about $24,000/semester. Add in some fees and stuff and I'd say its roughly $25-26K/semester. Not sure how different that is for accelerated students but I don't think it would be too different. NYU charges a flat fee for 12-18 credits and all of your semesters your credits will be within that range. Not too sure about GPA/acceptance rates since I went to NYU directly from high school, accelerated BSN reqs may be different. Other info about the program: The first 3 semesters you'll be taking "Adult & Elder Nursing" 1,2, and 3 respectively. These are general med-surg clinicals with a lecture component as well as on-campus simulations and off-campus hospital clinicals. On and off campus clinicals alternate every week so one week you will be in simulation and the next you will be at the hospital. Semesters are 12 weeks long, so you'd be at the hospital 6 times a semester and on campus sim 6 times a semester, unless there is a holiday that falls on your given clinical day. Sub-specialty courses like psychiatric nursing, pediatrics, and maternity are only 6 weeks each. A 12-week semester also means that there are ridiculous amounts of information to keep up with and exams almost every week. First semester is particularly tough with assignments and such. On any given semester you will only have classes 4 days a week, so you will always have one week-day off. This is very helpful for working/catching up with assignments/studying. Also, you have absolutely no choice in which hospitals you're placed at. Like, none at all. Wherever you're placed you're stuck at. Don't know if other programs are like that. They choose each and every single class and time for you, including lectures, so you have absolutely no say in what times you want your classes to be or which professor you'd like to have. Personally, I didn't feel too confident on my nursing abilities during my first two semesters, but I am now on my third semester and I am realizing how much I've actually learned. There are some things I would change about the course structures and program in general, but overall I am satisfied with the opportunities I've gotten at NYU! I hope I've helped in some way. Good luck with everything!