so i am having a rough time trying to make a decision and i can use whatever feedback is out there.
background: i am 32; newly engaged, to wed next year. currently work as a marketing communications coordinator (entry-level position). i have my ba in marketing. have been in the field for 4 years and absolutely hate it. no, i'm sorry, i actually loathe it, the business environment in and of itself, the sitting at a desk for hours (which, i am convinced, is a form of human torture), the suits, the heels, the 9-5, the not giving a *** about anything but "the bottom line". over it. always loved science, always loved helping others; but, when my father said to me at 19, "business is the way to go" , i listened....mistake. i digress....i am happiest when i am helping people and when i am learning. so, a career change is in order.
issue? well, i had it all planned out....until i found out last week that i am pregnant; wasn't part of the plan. apparently passion interfered with my ability to read the bold warning sign on my bottle of antibiotics that said "taking this drug can reduce the effectiveness of birth control". yes, well now i am going to be a mother in about eight months. i am not unhappy about the pregnancy, i am just struggling with some career decisions on my plate. a large part of me is just saying "forget it". just move on and find a job in business and suck it up. then the other part is dying inside b/c i know this is what i want. i live in san diego and there is tremendous competition for slots in nursing programs. when i think about trying to go to school and then actually getting into a school with the intense competition, i get very discouraged. i have the drive to get there, but i need to know that i am not reaching for something that is unattainable. i need to work at-least part time to pay my bills. am i naive to think that i can work part-time, care for a newborn and go to school at the same time? should i just take out an enormous loan to live off of while i go to school full-time? i know some of you may read this post and think, "girl, i have 4 kids, work full-time, teach yoga, i'm working on my msn, have my own business on the side and am training for an ironman". yes, i know there are women out there with this gift, and i wish i had it, but i don't. i don't know what my options are and i am quite discouraged. has anyone out there been in this situation? or a situation similar to my own? any advice would be much, much appreciated. thank you!
