I graduated as an ADN in June 2016 and it took me a long time to find a new job. I finally started working in March 2017. I had 8 weeks of preceptorship. The hospital didn't have a structured new grad program. Thankfully I had the same preceptor majority of the time. But she was just okay, I felt like I wasn't being taught enough. I have been on my own for about two months now and I am just not happy there. I feel so stressed and defeated every time I am there. I am miserable. My nursing manager that hired me just recently resigned 2-3 weeks ago. They haven't hired a new one yet so a nursing supervisor is overseeing us occasionally. My charge nurses aren't really that helpful at times and occasionally rude. I do find a few of my coworkers asking if I'm okay but they're busy with their own tasks and don't really help me. The doctors are so rude and disrespectful too. Lack of communication between them and the patients make me so stressful. I feel that I am in a bad environment. I work on the medsurg-telemetry floor. I have a two year contract with them and if I break it I would pay $5000. So then I am not sure if this is new grad blues or if this floor is not my niche... I just don't know what to do. I really want to resign but if I resign I only have 4 months experience under my belt. I understand I might not be a new grad anymore and I also do not have that 1 year experience when I look for my next job. My family and friends are telling me to suck it up and stay there for two years but they don't understand how miserable I am. In the policy it says the hospital is "at will employment" which means either party can leave or terminate with or without reason and notice. I was going to call in and tell them I resign. Will that leave a bad impression on me? I really don't think I can stick it out for another two weeks. I have called in sick a few times because of how much I dread going in to work. Please have give me some advice.. I'm a mess..