Hey everyone, I've stayed in the shadows of this website for a few years, reading posts and getting advice but never actually posted anything, but I have to share my excitement with people that I know will understand, and with the people who have unknowingly given me advice and encouragement along my difficult journey here! I know this is probably just one of SO many posts about passing, but I just have to share. I graduated from nursing school at the end of 2013, but about halfway through the program I realized that nursing wasn't where my passion was. But I was so close to finishing I decided that I needed to finish and at least have nursing as an option if I changed my mind or whatever...it was better than just having so much time in school wasted! I originally took the NCLEX about 4 months after I graduated and failed with 120 questions. I wasn't completely surprised, even though I studied, because I just didn't put much effort into it because it's just not where my heart was...but I was devastated nonetheless of being a "failure." I told very few people that I failed - roommates, fiance, one well-trusted friend, and my mom - because it's just embarrassing, you know? I didn't want to have to explain it to everyone, and I just needed to deal with it alone. Even though I didn't know if I really wanted to be a nurse after all, I NEEDED to pass this test, because I didn't go through all that school and spend all that money to not have a license in the end. Well, life happened...I got married, moved 4 times, got really sick, and realized new passions that I began pursuing...and although I prepared and studied off and on for a long time and planned to take it a couple times since then, I was never able to take the test again. I even had it scheduled one day last year, studied hard...and ended up in the ER the morning that I was supposed to take it. UGH! Well in the whole year since then, It's just been nagging me in the back of my mind that I still hadn't passed, and I realized that there was still an interest and passion in healthcare in my heart so I decided to try again. I spent the last couple of months non-stop studying, was able to take the test this Monday, got around 160 questions and definitely left there thinking I failed. I didn't do the Pearson Vue trick because I wanted a couple of days of at least thinking I had a possibility of passing, haha...but after 2 LONG days of waiting, I found out yesterday that I PASSED!!! I really didn't think there was any possibility of passing on my first try after such a long time, but I did it!! I was totally expecting to see "fail" and have to take it again in a couple months...I wasn't even upset about that, it's just what I was realistically expecting...so I just about had a heart attack when I saw those words, and then saw my actual license listed on my state BON website!!
I'm so happy and relieved I don't even know what to say. I prayed a LOT for this test, and the few people who knew the truth were praying for me too, and I know that that's a major thing that made a big difference, because I know I couldn't have done this all on my own! And I want to just shout it from the rooftops that I passed, but I really can't because pretty much everyone thinks I already passed a couple years ago. So I just needed to at least announce it here, since I know there's not judgement, and you guys have all really helped me a lot through this process and reading these posts has been a big reason why I never gave up. I don't really know where I'll go from here...I've begun to pursue other passions and have a good job and am happy with what I'm doing now, but I've definitely been considering being a nurse after all. I know that maybe the torture and chaos of nursing school may have been what made me think I wasn't passionate about nursing, but I know that the real world is so much different and I think I could really enjoy being a nurse! So even though I don't really know where I'm going now, and I know that at this point it would be more difficult to get a nursing job...it's just a big relief to know that this is an open door for me now, as opposed to an obstacle. It's such big weight lifted off my shoulders, and I am just so ecstatic that I can FINALLY put those 2 letters that I worked so hard for behind my name now. I've joined the RN club, and it feels good!
So, long post I know...but I just wanted to say THANK YOU to all of you who are so encouraging on here, the ones who have taken it multiple times and not given up and reminded me to persevere, and the ones who had really good suggestions for study resources! I may not be able to announce my passing on Facebook or tell the whole world, but I can tell all of you and it feels SO GOOD!
~Kelly, RN :)
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Hey everyone, I've stayed in the shadows of this website for a few years, reading posts and getting advice but never actually posted anything, but I have to share my excitement with people that I know will understand, and with the people who have unknowingly given me advice and encouragement along my difficult journey here! I know this is probably just one of SO many posts about passing, but I just have to share. I graduated from nursing school at the end of 2013, but about halfway through the program I realized that nursing wasn't where my passion was. But I was so close to finishing I decided that I needed to finish and at least have nursing as an option if I changed my mind or whatever...it was better than just having so much time in school wasted! I originally took the NCLEX about 4 months after I graduated and failed with 120 questions. I wasn't completely surprised, even though I studied, because I just didn't put much effort into it because it's just not where my heart was...but I was devastated nonetheless of being a "failure." I told very few people that I failed - roommates, fiance, one well-trusted friend, and my mom - because it's just embarrassing, you know? I didn't want to have to explain it to everyone, and I just needed to deal with it alone. Even though I didn't know if I really wanted to be a nurse after all, I NEEDED to pass this test, because I didn't go through all that school and spend all that money to not have a license in the end. Well, life happened...I got married, moved 4 times, got really sick, and realized new passions that I began pursuing...and although I prepared and studied off and on for a long time and planned to take it a couple times since then, I was never able to take the test again. I even had it scheduled one day last year, studied hard...and ended up in the ER the morning that I was supposed to take it. UGH! Well in the whole year since then, It's just been nagging me in the back of my mind that I still hadn't passed, and I realized that there was still an interest and passion in healthcare in my heart so I decided to try again. I spent the last couple of months non-stop studying, was able to take the test this Monday, got around 160 questions and definitely left there thinking I failed. I didn't do the Pearson Vue trick because I wanted a couple of days of at least thinking I had a possibility of passing, haha...but after 2 LONG days of waiting, I found out yesterday that I PASSED!!! I really didn't think there was any possibility of passing on my first try after such a long time, but I did it!! I was totally expecting to see "fail" and have to take it again in a couple months...I wasn't even upset about that, it's just what I was realistically expecting...so I just about had a heart attack when I saw those words, and then saw my actual license listed on my state BON website!!
I'm so happy and relieved I don't even know what to say. I prayed a LOT for this test, and the few people who knew the truth were praying for me too, and I know that that's a major thing that made a big difference, because I know I couldn't have done this all on my own! And I want to just shout it from the rooftops that I passed, but I really can't because pretty much everyone thinks I already passed a couple years ago. So I just needed to at least announce it here, since I know there's not judgement, and you guys have all really helped me a lot through this process and reading these posts has been a big reason why I never gave up. I don't really know where I'll go from here...I've begun to pursue other passions and have a good job and am happy with what I'm doing now, but I've definitely been considering being a nurse after all. I know that maybe the torture and chaos of nursing school may have been what made me think I wasn't passionate about nursing, but I know that the real world is so much different and I think I could really enjoy being a nurse! So even though I don't really know where I'm going now, and I know that at this point it would be more difficult to get a nursing job...it's just a big relief to know that this is an open door for me now, as opposed to an obstacle. It's such big weight lifted off my shoulders, and I am just so ecstatic that I can FINALLY put those 2 letters that I worked so hard for behind my name now. I've joined the RN club, and it feels good!
So, long post I know...but I just wanted to say THANK YOU to all of you who are so encouraging on here, the ones who have taken it multiple times and not given up and reminded me to persevere, and the ones who had really good suggestions for study resources! I may not be able to announce my passing on Facebook or tell the whole world, but I can tell all of you and it feels SO GOOD!
~Kelly, RN :)