at the beginning of december (12/5), i was in an accident. this was the last day of class in my first semester of nursing school. our last exam was scheduled a week later and them the course final a week after that. i had to take an incomplete in the course but my school scheduled make-up exams for 1/6 and 1/13 so that i will have everything completed from the first semester and can start the second semester with my class on 1/20, if my doctor writes me the ok to go back. i think that is one of the big things holding me back. if my injury does not heal by the start of clinical which is the first week of feb. i have to take a leave of absence, which means i could not get back into the program until spring 2010 (nurs classes are only offered one semester). my surgeon thinks it will be close (give or take 2 weeks) and my school is very specific that all students must be able to adhere to all technical standards in order to be allowed in clinical and they can't change the rules even if it might only be two weeks. my surgeon has also told me that i can't rush things because i could make things worse, all these things i understand. it is just a lot to have on my mind. i have 2 kids, a husband that was very supportive in me stopping working to persue my dream, i took a year + of pre-req's, have student loans that i will have to pay back if i have to take time off, plus a year off means it will take me 4 yrs to complete an adn. i have put so much into this and i know that i should be greatful that i am still alive or not injured so badly that i could never go back. time is ticking and i have to get it together and study but i can't seem to get it together. i feel overwhelmed, i feel like i don't remember anything from the lectures, and just can't seem to accomplish anything. the most unfamiliar topics for the exam are diabetes, htn, and fluids & electrolytes. i have all the powerpoints and my notes and have sat down a couple of times and tried to review a section but i feel like i am not retaining anything. i have an a in the class now but these 2 exams make up almost half of my grade. even as i sit here now and type this, my mind is racing about all the stuff i need to review, a week after i take the first exam, i have to take the final which covers things i learned 4 months ago. my exam is going to be the only one going through that scantron, i don't want to do horrible or blow my shot. i know this is not constructive and i am being my own worst enemy here. i know i am putting alot of pressure on myself. knowing this doesn't seem to be helping though!!!if anyone has some words of wisdom, feel free to share!