I absolutely love where I work. Being as that we are a small hospital we see usually less than 100 deliveries a month. When things don't go as planned and when new moms and dads have to go home empty handed it sucks. It just plain sucks. When they are full term that is the worst kind of heartbreak. They are so close.
We have a pretty good team on our floor so everyone but maybe one or two has at least some interaction with the patient before they even get to triage. When the moms walk in the door and you can see it in their eyes and you know that they know....it's horrible. I have only been working for 4 full term demises in the last 2 years I have been there. You can kind of disconnect the early miscarriages, the Trisomy 18's, and the other disorders by thinking that the littles ones wouldn't have been able to live or would have had a poor quality of life. But the planned full terms to healthy moms with no appearant reason as to why...ugh...Then watching them leave after the delivery empty handed with the little one still in the room. It's just wrong. I really feel for anyone that has personally lost a little one. I can't imagine having to go home and take apart the babys room, tell friends, etc.
I know you can't ever get used to that but it seems to be hitting me a little harder as I am pregnant myself. I don't want to go into work today.