Trying to pick myself up during my suspension.

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Hello everyone, I have posted before about my issues so I won't go into more detail. I currently and recently have a suspended RN license for 2 years for diversion of narcotics. Since then, I have had a very difficult time pulling myself together because of the shame and guilt I am experiencing. Currently, I am staying at home with my 7 month old daughter and doing all of the necessary compliance recommendations of the Board of Nursing. I was hoping to say that things have gotten easier since this past February but they have not been. I have been having a very, very difficult time forgiving myself and have a great deal of self hatred that I am dealing with. I feel like a failure. I sincerely care deeply about my profession and about my patients and am having a terrible time being away from nursing. However, I have been entirely sober and do not have ANY desire to use whatsoever. Sorry, I'm getting off topic. Anyway, I have always wanted to get my Masters degree in the healthcare field. Obviously, it would be my choice for it to be in Nursing but since I don't qualify for a MSN due to my current suspended license, I was wondering what you all thought about a Masters in Healthcare Administration. I would love to be a Nursing Director or a Nurse Manager etc.. someday but I feel extremely discouraged about the recent suspension. I hate to not get a Masters in Nursing specifically but.... would I be able to be a Nurse Manager/Administrator someday when my license is reinstated?? Would this Masters degree be helpful to the Bachelors degree that I already have? I was wondering if it would be an asset to my Bachelors or just not even worth it. Do any of you know the significant differences between a Masters Degree in Nursing: Nursing Administration and a Masters of Healthcare Administration? Can I get similar jobs? This is of course AFTER my license is reinstated. I figured that since I am home with my daughter anyway, I could look into an online Masters program. I hate to get excited about this because I don't want to be let down but this could most definitely help me get through these next few years. Please let me know what you all think. I greatly appreciate your comments. So sorry this was so long :(

You have a lot on your plate right now. Take care of your recovery.

As far as "what about" whatever kind of degree, or healthcare field... you'll need to find out, first, from your state's DoH or whoever regulates these things, if it's possible for you to get into that field, and then, from ... I don't know from whom, really... whether it's realistic for you to get into that field, meaning, will you get hired?

Good luck to you.

@ Viva- very nicely put!

KaseyJo.. I understand most of what you are feeling. I have been there. I am in Florida and I had my licenses suspended by IPN. I contacted an Attorney to help deal with everything I was going through. After going in front of the BON I ended up with another suspension, for a total of 2.5 years. I was in a very dark place for a couple of months and I finally pulled myself out and started doing things to help get my mind off of everything. Before I knew it the time was up and I was able to go in front of the BON and was granted my licenses back.. You can PM me if you just need someone to talk to.. I am wishing you the best of luck..

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I too, am considering a master's program, I have started teaching medical assistants, as I don't need my license for that, I love teachin so I am goinng to start a Masters in clinical lab science and hopefully teach anatomy, and pathophysiology undergraduate

Specializes in urgent care, medical surgical, ob/gyn,hh.

Hello

I know this is an old post but I wanted to let you know that I have a similar story to yours. My nursing license is suspended right now for six months for losing my job while in my state's recovery program. I have been in recovery since June 15, 2007 due to un resolved issues I carried around for years and used pills to cope. I had my ASN when I first got into recovery and I graduated with my MSN Nurse Executive in October 2012, once I addressed my issues I was able to continue my education successful. I was suffering from depression and had zero coping skills when I got into recovery but I went in wanting to get myself together so I could continue to help others and it worked. I said all that to say that we have to get ourselves well to help others get well. I wish you all the luck and forgive yourself.

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