I've been working in oncology for the past 15 years. Even though people tell me I'm a good nurse, I feel like a fraud. I'm not confident in the decisions I make (not in the day to day type of decisions as a nurse, but decisions that affect others e.g. sometimes when I'm in charge). Some days I think to myself, I'd make a really stellar secretary, I'd be so on top of it, and yet, I've gotten by the past 15 years as a nurse because I guess I know enough to play the game.
I really want to leave the bedside, but I've done that before and unfortunately went into another role that involved scenarios where people deferred to me for decision making and those decisions sometimes echo'd in all sorts of perpetual meetings and the weight of that was something I carried everyday until I decided to leave the role years later and go back to the bedside. Now here I am and I feel like I just can't do bedside anymore.
I'd ideally like a job that requires extensive knowledge that I can learn but not have to make decisions under pressure that affect others. I love working on projects but not take work home with me. I'd like like to leave acute care. I would try to switch specialties but nowhere near me will take an experience nurse into a new specialty.
is there any type of role that I could get into without experience but be able to learn and do well?
