Hi everyone, yesterday I was in charge on the afternoon shift with two other nurses. A male nurse did not like my allocation because he wanted the lightest load. So he began telling me that I should have the heaviest patient list. I explained that I was in charge and it was my decision to allocate. This nurse carried on getting in my face and then he went out and told the other staff that I was unfair etc. The day before he asked if I could swap his patient with mine as his patients family were anxious and would ask him questions. Mine was a incompliant verbally abusive patient. So I agreed with him but when he found out that this person was going to have infusions etc he wanted to swap again for a light load. The other staff made comments about me that I shouldn't say im in charge and began to give me the cold shoulder. I cried and walked off the ward wanting to leave. This male nurse disappears for extended breaks, he did not back me up when I was faced with a aggressive man. In fact he said I will be back just going to make a cup of tea. I cried in front of him and apologised for making him upset instead. At the moment I feel like leaving because the other nurses are ignoring me because I dared try to do my job as shift charge. Im trying hard not to get emotional or cry. I feel ashamed that I showed my feelings and I feel railroaded by my work mates. I've always been a good nurse and cared about my workmates. But feel like walking out. To top it off that nurse asked to change patients again one hour into the duty because mine refused everything. I feel like why be in charge of you can't make decisions and try to run the ward properly. I don't think I can cope with being excluded. This nurse has been on the ward for almost ten years and im only 18 months. The culture is very laid back, nurses don't answer bells, have 2 hourly breaks, healthcare assistants sit on the internet most of the shift and are verbally abusive toward some of the quieter nurses. Patients complain that no one is on time to give them pain meds etc. It's hard to go against this environment to improve things.