HI! I am a labor and delivery nurse I have been working nights since June of 2007. I LOVE LOVE LOVE labor and delivery but I do not love nights. I hate them with a passion. I live in a small valley where this is the closest hospital to me the next one is about 65 miles away. Turn over on day shifts where I work is almost non existent. We have really awesome nurses that have been there 20+ years. But it presents a problem to myself. I am 2nd on senority on nights and the girl above me has 6 days senority. That will cost me about 1-2 years more on the night shift *if* a day shift opens. Which is highly unlikely. I am concerned though. I hate going to work now. I try to request call almost every day. Which is a huge red flag for me. I love the job and I have worked a few days and have noticed a HUGE difference in my attitude and just work production. I am not a night person. All through out life I went to bed at 8pm woke up at 5. When I took this job back in 2007 I didn't realize that it was going to be nights for the rest of my life. Since I am in a small community there are no job openings for nurses at the moment. I just know that I can't work nights very much longer. I do NOT like who I am. I am extremely bitter, depressed and just hate life. I know it's from working night shifts. I also feel that the hospital I work for just doesn't care about the night shift at all. Maybe i'm just a whiner and need to suck it up? I don't know! I just do not like who I have become and who I am now because of the lack of sleep and bitterness towards my job. I mean I went into nursing to care for patients and when i'm avoiding work because I am too exhausted does that counteract my caring for patients? I think I need to find a new job? *sigh* *cry*