and wow, do I have a lot to learn (1st semester nursing program)! I hope that eventually I will fall into a "groove" and all this material will come together and make sense. But right now it might as well be a foreign language.
More anxiety: We have to watch videos outside of class. I was hoping to go when my son is in preschool in the mornings, but the nursing lab isn't open then. So, guess I'll be going at night...I hate to take away from any more "family time" than I already am though.
Still more anxiety: I hope I will like my classmates. I hope they will like me. I've always been kind of shy and I know no one in my program so this is making me a bit nervous.
And now, the silliest thing of all: I feel like a big old fake! I have a brand-new stethoscope and I've never even used a stethoscope before. I have new scrubs and new shoes and it's going to make me look like I know what I'm doing but I don't!
No one can possibly be more of a newbie to the healthcare field than me.
But they wouldn't have accepted me if they thought I didn't have what it takes. And I have no bad habits or shortcuts to unlearn.
Taking deep breaths now...thanks for listening. I hope that in a month or so I can look back and laugh about my feelings right now!
