I realized today that nursing school taught me about 1 /100000 of what I need to know to be the nurse that I want to be. I left feeling inadequate today. I know it'll take time but I sure wish I could be like the other nurses on the floor who make it all look so easy. I am still on orientation so I know I can't be that hard on myself. Today I still only took a fifteen minute break and left fifteen minutes late and that was only with two patients!!! Well, tomorrow I want to ask to only have one but I am not sure if that'll make me look bad. I just want to have one patient, maybe more acute but that I can actually think through everything I do to understand it. I feel like I am learning a lot skill wise but am having a hard time understanding everything from start to finish. Ahh, its so much fun!