Ok I finally was able to find a nursing job right? So I show up on time and stay out of the way. I was placed with a very smart and knowledgable seasoned nurse. Three weeks into this new position I messed up on some paper work. Oh boy did my preceptor come out of a bag on me! And the ***** never went back in either! Nothing I did was good enough or fast enough. She would belittle me in front of patients, and they wouldnt want me taking care of them. Then from there my confidence went way down, and I did make more mistakes. My preceptor, and my nurse manager used to work the floor together and they have both been there for over 10 years. The charge nurse and my preceptor hang out together after work and they are all good friends. There were a few situations were they let me know that nothing was private. Things that I said to my manager didnt stay there and my preceptor only got worse. I had gotten to the point that I wanted to quit, but I didnt. I kept going back until they fired me. They said that they thought the unit was to fast for a new grad, and that I should seek employment on a med surg unit in the future. I had high patient satisfaction and I got great comments on my patient care yet I was not progessing enough to allow me to grow on the night shift? How will this play out for me? Will they tarnish me for life? How long will it stay in my hospital file?