Hi all,
I have so many feelings that I just have to get them out of me. I know that I have seen so many friendly nurses provide information and help/ advice, so I thought that I could use some of the advice that I am always seeing offered to other new nurses.
I applied for a Peds RN position at a large teaching hospital, and I got hired as a graduate nurse until I pass boards. I am feeling so much anxiety. I am having a hard time distinguishing whether it is regular new grad anxiety or full out panic. I have so much fear. I am scared of being a "real" nurse, scared of asking a dumb questions, sounding dumb, looking dumb, afraid to talk to residents and doctors. I really like Peds, I love the staff, they are great, I don't know what my problem is. Our hospital also has student loan repayment( which I REALLY need), but I am afraid to take it because I am afraid I won't make it a year, and that I will have to repay all of that money. I did my Peds clinicals there, so I knew that I wanted to work here, but of course it is SO different than clinicals. I feel anxiety looking at all the things the nurses have to do every shift. I have only been working two weeks, and take boards in two weeks from now. A friend of mine said that I could transfer units,( post-partum was my second choice) but I don't want the staff to feel that time was wasted training me, if I decide to leave. I am confused and nervous, any suggestions would be great. Thanks in advance.
Dimples